Mental part of detox maybe?

[cstep496]

I guess I'm dealing with the dreaded mental part now. I just feel like I have let everyone down. I'm sure it's just my mind messing with me, but dam it *****. Like last night I could tell that my wife was hoping for some intercourse ( cause it has been a while ) but I just pushed her away. The same as when I was using, she understands, I think. Dam why did I get myself into this situation!! I would almost rather be hurting physical wise then to have my mind running wild like it is. I know ( I hope ) the day is coming that magic day that I see so many of you post. Anyway thanks for listening...

[Whollymolythathurt]

I'm in the same boat as you.  Physicals mostly gone but the energy & drive is not there.  I'm a mental midget at times just staring into space...what am I thinking?  Have no idea.  I too, wait for that magical day to arrive.  I've reset my friggin "clean" calendar 3x since Nov.  

I'll be happy when the energy and drive come back.  Everyone called me a "busy body". Not anymore.

Hang in there....we'll get there.  I figure I didn't get to this point in 2 weeks so I shouldn't expect to recover in that time frame.

[msdelight]

HA HA funny but TRUE! See you in 5 minutes!

[nonights]

Tell that brain NO NO NO.  One good thing about detox is if you don't like what's happening now wait five minutes and you get something else.

[msdelight]

Chin up chap, the Magic Day is on it's way! I PROMISE your mind will settle down, the physical will even out and you will start having more goods days than bad ones.  12 days is amazing and yes this is the "mentals". Your addict brain telling you it can't be done, it's too hard, get me those pills, I cant live without them. Guess what? ALL LIES! You already know this but we all need to be reminded! Try listening to some good music when you can, dance around the kitchen with your wife and you will crack a smile. Then a laugh, then.......hmmmm good lovin!