17 days off of heroin

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I first posted on September 2nd about doing pills and heroin. On the 3rd, I stopped completely.  Ive been clean since (as well as my boyfriend - yay!). On my first post most of my replies were that I needed to get professional help, which I do believe is true, but when I'm high I'm just too depressed and "up and down" to take any of that seriously. So I decided to try to get clean for a little while before I take those big, scary steps (therapy is scarier to me than not using). And so far Ive been okay. I've never had to stop doing heroin before, and I started getting severe panic attacks, but they seem to lessen by the day. I feel wonderful right now, my family seems to be very happy for me (except my mom asking me for pills yesterday for herself - ha.. she apologized though). This post is a little awkward because I feel kind of like a jerk for ignoring everyone telling me to get inpatient help and just trying to go about this on my own.

[sara752]

im on day 18 from oc & opana,,feels much better uh ? i w\go to na & got a sponcer..i highly recomend it..has changed the way i think about this diseace...bess of luck..sara

[akitagurl12]

you are doing wonderful, keep moving forward :)

[Nighthawk61]

Congratulations dear on your 17 days!!! That's AMAZING and the fact that your boyfriend has quit as well is great. I do think that it's important for you to go to NA, for both of you, and consider getting sponsors, that you can call if and when the urge to use happens. I will be praying for you both. TRUE LONG TERM HAPPINESS IS AROUND THE CORNER.

[IBKleen]

Hi,

I am happy for you that you are clean. Way to go. The reason that therapy, meetings or some form of aftercare is recommended is for the mental part of this disease. Please don't fool yourself into thinking it will not sneak up on you because it will. Using drugs is the end result of what is going on with you. You began to use to hide something--feelings, emotions, events, etc. Regular people (whoever they are) don't get up in the morning snort a bag of H and go about their day. Addicts do. And because you put the drugs down doesn't mean the problems have gone away. This disease is patient and sneaky.

What would it hurt to give therapy a try? There is nothing to fear there and can be a rewarding experience. You will learn about yourself, what makes you tick and what triggers you. You can learn life coping skills and hopefully learn relapse prevention. I hope you decide to give it a go. Best of luck.

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In my last post I also mentioned that I'm a binge-eater, but it seems that when I'm not high, I don't binge at all (it sounds weird to picture someone doing heroin and then eating a crapload of food, but thats what I did). As long as I have a clear head, my urge to binge is much weaker.