25 hours and counting...

[NikkiB78]

well it's 25 hours since my last does of perc.  

i got caught.  big time.  by husband....who in turn told both families, the DOCTOR, and whoever else would listen.  new fam doc sent me a letter refusing to be his patient.  blah, blah, blah.  i am pissed off about it all.  if there is any clarity at this end of i hope it's that i truly don't want to divorce my husband.  because i have already started the process.  i am fully aware of where i was and what needed done.  and as a husband...he could have helped me do it.  not virtually put it in the paper for everyone f$king person we know to know.  whatever.  being pissed off is the only thing getting me thru this and considering he carries the keys to the gun cabinet they are in, he told my mother so now she hides her too, and my doctor told me to **** off....i'm done.  

oh have an appointment with a counselor tomorrow.  yay.

so anyone asking for an update from me.  there u have it.

[vicki595]

That's probably the best thing right now. Not only can you relax a little and have some quiet time but they'll help you medically with withdrawals.  Stay in touch,okay?  

[NikkiB78]

I am in the hospital. I admitted myself today. Couldnt do it at home amymore.

[atthebeach]

i know things are really bad now. hun you have been struggling for a long time with addiction, anxiety and depression. the pills are just  continuing to make everything worse.
the anti-depressant wont work properly until you are off the opiods. i am glad you are going to the counselor please stick with it. there are lots of hurts right now between you and your husband and the familys just let the dust settle. your husband is calling the kettle black he also has his issues and isnt acknowledging them. you are the big giril here and have admitted your problem that is huge. please try to relax you dont need to have major anxiety attacks. please get to some support groups. i know you are mad and bitter right now but the LORD is still there for you. ask HIM to help you,strengthen you, and hold you up . prayer does work. please call me so we can just talk. you have been on my heart for months and i want to be there for you.

sending hugs and prayers
debbie

[vicki595]

I know and you know why...it was about the pain med right?  Maybe he would consider helping you in this situation. But,maybe not...Is there an urgent care nearby?   Also, your husband wants to help you so maybe HE can call the doctor. You need some help here and it wouldn't be fair at all to "bust" you like this and then abandon you!

Also, there's always the ER. You could go there and just be honest...the doctors generally like to help when they know you want the help!  There are some options... What about your family? Is there anyone you're close to who can help you out here?   I need to say this is unfortunate...you just cannot be abandoned because some people don't like your situation!  You need the help but you need to meet someone half way...just ask your husband to help you. I don't know if he's a mean spirited person or just doesn't know what to do about this. I do know you could use his help and support in a positive way right now.
Try talking to him...

[NikkiB78]

My family doctor kicked me out.

[vicki595]

Nikki- Please give your doctor a call...Some clonidine would really help you and I'm sure your doctor would be willing to help. You don't need to suffer like this;there are meds you can take that are safe.

Thinking of you...