I need inspiration to quit

[trthomas]

I have a serious problem with vicodin and don't know how to stop. It's never a good day to. During the week I tell my self not to quit because i dont want to go through withdrawls at work. On the weekend, I want to have a good time and relax, so it not a good time for withdrawls either. I'm spending 40-50 dollars a day and it's getting out of hand. If i go  six hours without taking anything i start getting back aches and headaches. Not only that im starting to dip into my husband and my savings account and he doesnt know. I have to get a grip but im scared. I cannot tell my doctor, because I feel like he will hold it against me later. I used to be strumg out on heroin, and sought medical help. Not only did the hospital/my doctor not help me, when I got in for treatment it always comes up. I hate having it thrown in my face. Espically since i went through withdrawls cold turkey anyways. My husband helped me with that, but he is out of state working now, and I'm too ashamed to tell him what's been going on. Can anyone offer advice on the best way to get through withdrawls?

[Iwant2Bclean]

I just want to add that I was the same way not so long ago. I looked for everybody else to tell that I wanted off of them but didn't try to find a reason that I wanted me to quit until I was sitting here detoxing and for once my mind was clear and I could look back on the hell it has caused in my life my hubby and my son's life. I asked myself if that was the life I dreamed I would be giving my son? HELL NO! Was this the life I planned on having the first years of my marriage? years to come? NO No no no no no and then I found that the only person that I needed to inspire me was ME. You might not be that way at all but I just wanted to put my opinion out there

[Iwant2Bclean]

I could say any and everything you would want me to say to you to give you that inspiration you seek BUT until YOU have it set in YOUR mind that YOU want to be free from the addiction and find that inspiration in yourself  I might as well be talking to a wall cause nothing I say will make a difference in your road to recovery!

[Jebs317]

Hi,
Reading your post I really feel connected to the problems you are facing.  Not only did I hide it from my significant other, but my doctor at the time gave me the same kind of attitute.  This is my second detox from vicodin.  My first was in August.  I actually went to a detox in a hospital.  I didn't go for me though, I went because my ex threatened me that it was either get clean or go to jail.  Not that I could go to jail, but it scared me enough that he threatened because he found out I bought pills on the street.  I went to detox and stayed clean for 30 days....for him.  Once I kicked him out, I decided to finally get clean for me.  I am on day 13.  I feel incredible!!  I can definitely help you with some withdrawal issues.  I have gotten some great ideas from people on here as well as on the internet.  
It gets me so mad that doctors get us hooked on these and then turn their backs on us when we are addicted and NEED help!!

[Beccabeccalynn]

I am sorry you are struggling. Do you want to quit? You said your doctor can't be told, and that he always brings up treatment. Finding a new doctor who you can talk to and make  a plan to get clean. In my opinion you relpaced your heroin addiction with a differant opiate it is common and can happen with any drug with any other drug if not carefully watched it's called cross addiction. How about going to meetings NA could help give you needed support. Becca