A little nervous

[luvabugga]

Tomorrow is my first appt. with the pm doc since I stopped the Norco 19 days ago, and he has no idea I stopped.  Little nervous about this.  I know he'll have a script in his hand when I walk through the door.  Not sure if I'm strong enough for this yet!

[luvabugga]

Yes...NoLife4Me is coming with me...lol.  No really, I'm doing this on my own.  That's just how I am.  I have to be responsible for my own actions.

I do have Celebrex and Relafen.  I actually stopped taking that too.  Besides from hating the way I felt with the Norco, I had decided to stop taking everything including the anti-inflammatory.  I saw a health segment on the news saying that taking an anti-inflammatory constantly can actually stop the body from naturally healing.  I had been on everything for a year and a half and just wanted to see how I really felt without any meds.  So I just stopped everything.

I'm basically going to the appt. to get the rx for pt and to discuss the epidural procedure.  Still haven't made a firm decision yet if I'm going.

[bama88]

Do you have any celebrex on hand?? That way you can cancel the appointment and reschedule or findanother doctor. My worry is you'll.go get another supply of Norco and be back on them. Then you'll get mad at yourself and start the whole crazy process again. You know what I mean??

But look how concerned you are about this. Look how much better you feel. Your not in pain like you thought you'd be. That's a good thing. And you know what's the right thing to do.

If you feel you must go can you take someone with you??

Could you give someone the script of norcos and just fill the other meds?? Or better yet no norcos and just the other meds.

Addiction is hard. It's not easy at all. Especially now.
The longer we stay on the meds the harder detoxing becomes. And our lives will only deteroate more. There's nothing good about this disease. It's a tricky disease. No easy answers.

Do what's best for you.
Supporting you.

[Teresa1717]

If you find out you can't handle the pain later, THEN you cross that bridge! You just said that the pain is not as bad as you thought, so thats a good sign!

You're stronger than you give yourself credit for honey.  You turned down the hydromet so thats huge! :)

You're doing a good job! :) keep reaching out for strength though!

[Missshawn]

I made the appointments hen I went in and asked for a taper plan.. I didn't go,I had someone cancel it.. I have faith in you.. Get what u need and get out..lmbo

[luvabugga]

See that's the whole thing.  I don't want to take these for the rest of my life...at all!  And really that's why I stopped.  And my pain isn't as bad as I thought it would be...yet anyway.  Some days it's worse than others, but pt has really been helping with that.  Plus some other changes I made...like the way I sleep and my desk at work.  Right now I feel like I can totally live without pain meds...but what if I find out I can't??

[luvabugga]

He's treating me with Celebrex, Norco, anti-inflammatory topical gel and pt.  He would just hand me the script for Norco and say 'Don't take it if you don't need it'.  Yeah...ok.  Bye-bye...see you next month...call me!  And out the door I went!

He gave me Dilaudid one time when I was having a real bad few weeks.  I just happen to see an episode of Criminal Minds about it and was too afraid to take it.

I think I'm a little scared of everything.  If I tell him I don't want to take it anymore and then down the road I need it, I'm afraid he'll say 'crazy lady...go away'.  And then what?  But I'm also afraid if I get the script I'll fill it and take it.  I'm just afraid of everything I guess!!