Aftercare, therapist

[freshstart01]

Okay- so I made my appt. I was against aftercare, and have been detoxed for 43 days, but use a pill at 16 / or 19 days. Been on and off 1 to 2 pills every other day ad needed. Haven't fell back into the 15 a day . However, I constantly think of pills, so I listened to u all and found a counselor, which focuses on addiction/depression. I took a pill yesterday for pain. My question is. Where do I begin?  What do
I say?  So nervous.

[freshstart01]

Yesterday I tool 1 pill. Which I found in purse. I dumped them all last week.

[freshstart01]

Gnarly, wow.... Inspirational story. I'm not sure what methadone is, but I'm glad u flushed it that day long ago.
I need strength. May god help on strength and sober thoughts today.

[atthebeach]

when  did you take your last pill? are you having withdrawal symptoms or just cravings?

[freshstart01]

I'm struggling. Trying to think of things that will take my mind off them. I am craving bad. Thinking positive thoughts- trying too. Thinking of future. Clean thoughts.

[atthebeach]

good morning kim,
hows things going my friend? you can win this battle. there is a war raging for your life and your very soul. i pray that you are trusting in the LORD and asking HIM to break those chains of bondage and addiction that have you bond. HE is able to do great and mighty things on your behalf. trust,believe,hope.
i am praying for you and sending love and hugs
debbie

[gnarly_1]

hey Kim im so happy for you congrats on getting rid of the pills .....its hard to do I remember
sitting on my bathroom floor in front of the toilet and just staring at 3 bottles of methadone I had saved up during the weening process it was like 400 bucks worth of methadone but I new I had to do it and I had just finished my last day of tapering 8 1/2 mo of going in and out of withdrawals I was petrified my final withdrawal was going to kick my but...I had a tast of just how bad methadone withdrawals where 6 weeks earlier when I had a day of hiking up in the mountains and totally metabolized all that was in my system and I awoke to full blow convulsing withdrawals it scared me so...so there I sat almost hipmatised by the red colored liquid ....it was my life line if anything were to go wrong....like convulsing withdrawals again but I finely got the courage up and sad F/IT and pored my lifeline down the toilet the next morning was oct 18 09 a suday I remember begging Jesus in church to lightin up my withdrawals I had just had enough of them and couldent go another day
you know he gave me a scripture....''my grace will be sufficient for you'' when I left church that day I new I had ended a 16 1/2 yr run on narcotics I gave it over to God and although I would never want to do it again Jesus gave me a final withdrawal that was no where near ho bad it should have been....pull close to God Kim your going to beat this thing and its ok if you cry I did good luck on your road to recovery we all want to see you make it and your doing all the right things now ....you got this one....Gnarly  .