Am I brain damaged?

[The_Problem]

To: All.
Hi, I am problem. that is my name. that is who and what I am.

I have been taking tylonal #1s about 15 or more a day for about 5 or 6 years now. plus when I was 14 I would steal my dads tylonal 3's and eat like 9-11 at a time. My big question is why am I still here. I am not trying to take my life in anyway. But I do hurt myself. I been cutting myself since I was 11. the tylonals made me feel good about myself gave me confidence. but now it doesnt anymore. And I am always depressed. I've lost hope for my future and am a worrysome burden to my family. I guess my question is ...
Is my brain so far damaged that I am beyone repair? Can I fix myself or is it too late for me?

Be honest people. I can handle.

Problem.

[Franny62]

Find another Physician now, ask for a Psych referral so you can get the right medications to help you. You're clinically depressed, and that could be caused by stress, or even an unbalanced chemistry in your system. I can tell you it's not the codiene that will kill you, but the excessive acetamenophen that will do your liver, and pancreas in, and for God's sake don't use alcohol with them, because that will speed up the damage. There are so many choices for you, and if that lousy Doctor can't help you? Find another one!

[Darxus]

It's been a while since you have posted. I hope you are doing alright. We're hear for ya!

[wannabfre2b]

Hi buddy, im an addict too, but its no reason to start hurting yourself.  I fighting for my life also, i am NOT recovered, like most of these people giving you advice.  Im fighting too, but we can DO it together.  Don't let those pills, and attitudes of other people make you give it up.  Do it for YOURSELF, and no one else, not your mother, your father, whatever, do it for you, then go take a nice hike or a walk somewhere you love. and look at all the beautiful things God put here for us to enjoy, look at whats good in the world, and you are hang in there buddy, im trying to stay one day clean, and its hard, look at whats good out there.  You will find it, find a dog and take it for a walk, help an old lady with groceries, something like that, it will make you feel better.  Hell, if you have to go for a wild ride somewhere, bicycle with no hands. come do it...   I understand where your at.......

[Storme]

One thing you need to do is stop calling yourself The Problem and start believing that You can be your solution. I know it sounds impossible but it isn't. The only one who can save you, is You. You have to want to fight and I believe you do or you would not have come to this site and you would not have posted here asking for help and advice.

We want to help you through this because we Know EXACTLY how you feel inside and we know you can move past it and you can feel alive again. So many of us here are fighting, just as you are and we are doing it day by day and we are doing it with and without the support of anyone else in our personal lives. The one thing you have right now that you didn't before is the family of fine folks that are here on this forum. Let us care for you and support you and guide you through what is to come. Please trust me when I say that these people can literally help you save your own life. They helped me through every day of my challenge for sobriety and I am now 79 days clean.

Dry your eyes, take a deep breath and be the man you know deep down that you are. You have to do this for yourself. I know you want to be something besides a drug addict. I know you want a family of your own,, a daughter perhaps. No one can give that to you but yourself. Now fight for it. Fight!

[cantfly]

i am sure u will be giving many here a great gift by allowing us to be here for you.. small but positive steps.

[Darxus]

No you are not to far gone. I use to be a cutter also when I was younger. Right now I am addicted to Norcos. Though it was through prescription for my back in the past years I have abused a lot of substances. The thing with opiates is that yes the made you feel more confident and they may have made you invincablw, but this not nescissarily them making you feel this way. One of the side effects of the opiates is that they have a tendency to boost your dopamine a chemical in your brain that promotes happiness. Though the physical sideffects are typically pleasant physically. I don't know if you would be open to suggestion on talking to your doctor about medications, but my doctor put me on Lexapro. That stuff saved my life when it came to depression and anxiety. I hate most antidepressants but they feel really natural, not like a fake happy. I'm not a doctor, but i would suggest you talk to your about it. It's good stuff. If you don't think you can over come your addiction yourself I would definitly talk to a counciler. Some places have free drug councilars. I am scared of groups so for me one on one would be better. Let me know if you need to talk.