Day 1. More scared than sick. I think.

[ThisCantSuckForever]

I'm on Day 1 of going c/t from opiates. My doses were pretty high (Vicodin 10/325 x 10/day) and have been consistent over the last year or so. I finished my last two pills last night around 6pm. It's been 16 hours. I'm running hot/cold and feel kind of shaky, but that's it so far.

This is not my first rodeo. I've tried to quit before. I really need it to stick this time, and I feel like I'm doing all of the right things (game plan, Thomas Recipe), but right now I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Shouldn't I feel like garbage by now? And don't get me wrong, I don't feel fantastic, but I could drive to the store or unload the dishwasher if I had to.

Has anyone experienced delayed withdrawal, where their first day was not too bad and then they were hit by a ton of bricks? I have a hard time believing I'm getting off easy.

[NeverDreamed]

This is my third attempt at cold turkey off of a 20 (5mg,Vicodin) a day habit.  I did get prescribed Clonidine to help with the w/d symptoms.   I'm on Day 11 today, not taking anything but Motrin 1/day.   I too had such bad anxiety on what my mind thought my w/d would be, I was terrified.    Ive been wanting to quit taking them for so long, but I think the thought of the w/d process was why I couldn't do it.  I've never been further than Day 5, except for today... on Day 11.   Feeling proud and free, so far outweighs the w/d process.  My mind is clear, I remember things now.  I'm back to my ridiculously vivid recall ability.. Good Luck.  

[ThisCantSuckForever]

No, I can't taper. Both because I have no more pills and also because I a) can't control myself and b) the husband will cave if I ask him for one. We've been there before.

[bama88]

Well if the cats out of the bag you can seriously start to heal...i understand where your at..i had the shakes bad. had tremors for a long time..i was on oxy for three years. i had an eight year drug affair...but each detox is different...just breathe and know the poisons are on their way out.  this is the detox....you can do it...cab you taper?

[ThisCantSuckForever]

I tried to catch a nap after my bath. No such luck. I'm shaking, achy and really...I dunno. Off. I've told everyone I think I'm coming down with something, but I suspect my husband's on to me. He knows I've had troubles in the past, and believes I'm still using. A couple of weeks ago, we were talking and he asked if I knew that he still loves me no matter what. So I guess that means I should be able to tell him about this, right? And yet I can't bring myself to. I just want to suffer through and come out the other side, better for him. And for me.

[kyle505]

ThisCant:
I have to add that I tend to be up front with people asking about detox and what it will be like. When I started mine I found this forum and spent hours "shopping" for the answers I wanted, i.e., it won't last longer than a couple of days, you'll feel good after x days, sleep hasn't been an issue, etc. I soon realized I was being foolish - I would have to endure whatever my personal withdrawals would be.   The mental side of it can be worse to deal with; you'll start feeling better physically, and then your head will kick in. Even before things got bad, my internal voice kept telling me that if I could just get a pill somewhere, I'd be able to relax and deal with the detox better. Amazing. One final thing - you should be proud of yourself for doing this, and for every passing hour that you're clean. I can promise you, it does get better.

[kk1303]

Hours 24-48 were the worst for me...but its different for everyone. Just take each day as it comes & keep pushing through...u can do it!