Day 1 oxycontin withdrawal

[HarperOC]

Today is day one off oxycontin. I was snorting about 5 80's a day. I want to stop so badly. It is painful to type this right now but my body hurts so bad, my eyes are so watery, my legs wont stop twitching, i am sweating and so hot and then freezing cold the next second. My stomach hurts so bad I think I might throw up at any second. But I want to get through this so badly. I know this is just the drug trying to keep me using, I need to get through these WD's I want to have a real life and actually live my life not just watch it go by. Noone knows I am detoxing and I cant really tell anyone, I just want to go back to ym old self and be there for the people in my life and stop causing them so much pain. Is there anything I can do to help with the anxiety i feel like im about to have a panic attack. Also im just wondering about aftercare, what is the best form of aftercare people have done? Thanks for anyone that may take the time to read this and to everyone on here that makes this forum happen it is really inspiring to read your comments and stories, it gives me some hope through all this.

[yelapa]

I just read your latest post. Wow! You are doing great. I know it may not feel like it, but your thoughts are definitely moving forward. Look back at where you were at just a few days ago.  Real progress, I think.

[tgtiffany]

Hey, how are you doing???  I hope excellent :)  Going to yard sale today so won't be back til later!

[Roxy15s]

I think you have alot of support here and I myself am trying to get off pills after 6 years of taking them for an injury ... I don't feel I have the strength to stop because of the situation I can't take time off work to sup idk what to do

[tgtiffany]

Hey girl!  I hope that today is super awesome for you :)  You're doing great!  Just remember that okay?!  Keep it up!  I'll check in later :)

[Jaybird30]

Hey there.   I'm not sure if I've posted on you yet but I have been reading and what you are going through is totally normal!    Those moments of happiness you get every so often are a sign of recovery!   Your brain is starting to work without drugs.   Eventually you will have one of those moments and it will stay!   This is the best feeling in the world!   I've relapsed a bunch of times but I'm still doing better than I was when I was using a lot.!  You have to stay positive and wait for the happiness to stay!  You'll feel as if you were in a fog and all of a sudden everything will be clear!   Great job and good luck!

[HarperOC]

Also, i think it was gnarly that said u have to be ok with not being ok and thats so true for me right now. Its like yes half the day i am miserable feeling and it is a struggle but what i think of as a "solution" the drugs is no longer a solution. I know if i used id jsut start feeling bad again and have to detox again at some point, yet how i feel now isnt great either. At times it seems there is no solution, but the way  I see it, is if i stay on this path, even if i dont feel good now at least there is hope that the longer i stay sober the better ill feel and the more good days ill start to have, whereas I KNOW that if i go back to using i may feel good at first but eventually it will just take me backwards ill start to feel bad and at somepoint ill be right back where i started deep in WD's dope sick, drug addict, and miserable, so at least this way there is hope for a better life. Just trying to find ways to think about this to help me stay sober and fight thru this mental part..