Day 1 oxycontin withdrawal

[HarperOC]

Today is day one off oxycontin. I was snorting about 5 80's a day. I want to stop so badly. It is painful to type this right now but my body hurts so bad, my eyes are so watery, my legs wont stop twitching, i am sweating and so hot and then freezing cold the next second. My stomach hurts so bad I think I might throw up at any second. But I want to get through this so badly. I know this is just the drug trying to keep me using, I need to get through these WD's I want to have a real life and actually live my life not just watch it go by. Noone knows I am detoxing and I cant really tell anyone, I just want to go back to ym old self and be there for the people in my life and stop causing them so much pain. Is there anything I can do to help with the anxiety i feel like im about to have a panic attack. Also im just wondering about aftercare, what is the best form of aftercare people have done? Thanks for anyone that may take the time to read this and to everyone on here that makes this forum happen it is really inspiring to read your comments and stories, it gives me some hope through all this.

[tgtiffany]

Haha roller coasters -- since having my daughter I can't even get on a ferris wheel without feeling like throwing up!!!  How lame right???! lol Harper I read your post on tigerlily's thread, you seem to have this all figured out and everything!!  SO proud of you girl!!  

[shilohpeace]

HarperOC, when you say you have nothing to do.. just some input.. there is so much to do.. and so little time... can you get some art books and draw (even if you are not an artist), do you like to do any hobbies, any crafts, (do you like to clean?), can you pick up a guitar and learn the chords, or listen to albums and sing.. or dance around the living room (salsa, zumba, whatever).. of course, you may not feel like reading but a book can take your mind away from things.. and lots of good movies from the golden era of hollywood.. watch fun happy funny movies.. Just a thought to help you when you feel bored.  

[MrNewHope]

You guys are SO gonna vomit all over the place on that ride... I'll pass on the rollercoaster. Yuk!!!

[HarperOC]

Haha ok yes please!!

[tigerlily11]

Well you could come ride the rollercoasters at the amusement park with me!!! ;)

[HarperOC]

todays rough feel like i weigh 3295736 pounds, physically feel sick all over for some reason maybe cuz ive been trying to do to much lately. so tired and depressed and deee motivated... mr new hope i think ill get on my vacation today haha where should i go