Day 10 and scared

[Pat1956100]

I had to take lots of imodium today.  My stomach is very upset and my head is aching.  I want to curl up in a ball and try to sleep. I had those crazy phone calls yesterday from someone I don't want calling and now I have to face the 4pm appt today with the addiction counselor.
I am so scared now.  I feel sick.  I don't want to go but know I have to go.  Ugh, how did I get myself into this mess?
I just feel panicky and sick.  Hopefully the imodium kicks in and the headache goes away.  
5 more hours and I really don't know what to expect.  I hope it's not another let down.

[Sonrissa]

Hi Hon! Try not to be scared! Keep an open mind! This is a very positive step! We will be with you in spirit! It's going to be fine! You have worked so very hard and have come a long way! Please let us know how it goes! You will be in my thoughts and prayers!

[Pat1956100]

Thanks so much.
I have huge pockets to carry all of you.
I am going to start to get ready.  A long shower should help wash away the negativity.
Thanks again and I will let you know how I make out.
Love to all
Pat

[littlebit667]

Pat, I know you are determined and with all my good wishes..I hope you make it and find some help.  There is NOTHING you can tell the therapist that will upset them or judge you.  They want to help....let them....I know it is scary but, you have been to hell and back..how is a therapy session going to beat that?  You can do this!

[sunshinegal76]

Dear Pat, I don't know you, but you are certainly no wimp! To make it 10 days is soooo courageous. I envy you. Keep fighting! You are worth it :)

[axeman25]

^^^^^^^^  I Completely Agree!  ^^^^^^

Ten days is awesome. I have such week will when it comes to this stuff. I have to separate myself from people and situations. it *****. I look up to people that make up their mind to do something and then follow through, especially something like this.  Good for you, now give that counselor something to say, "Great Job!" about.

Good luck.

[D713]

me to =/,....