Drug seeking behavior

[joeyneedsyoutohelpme]

What are some good ways to to impact a change in my mentality that is so damn drug seekimg? I am in day 3 withdrawals/opiates- 3 years-have stopped cold. My wife got me the Thomas recipe stuff I found here on day 1. I really think that its worth it. It helps, but still things are hell.  

[imrprod]

I was on pills for 4 years and it was very hard to stop...I had to go to AA as I also had a problem with alcohol from the get go.  NA is also out there...staying sober alone is hell.  Go out there and share your story with others who know what you are going through and you will be amazed at how good it feels.  You are not alone and they won't make you feel ashamed as they have been there.  Get your life back and kick this diseases ***.  Addicts can't be alone we need help and it is out there for a buck in a basket you can get all of the help you could ever ask for and more.

[fogmussher]

What seemed to help me was being around people that were high and I was not. They seemed and were dull and stupid. I realized I was going around apearing to be retarded too. I felt embarassed enough to not want to come off that way to anyone again. I didn't realize it when I was doing it along with them.

[Charetti]

The drug seeking mentality will need time to fade I believe.  Its a habit or pattern that needs active interruption right now but over time you will find that more time will go by between these thoughts.  Its just like when you lose someone and you can barely go one minute without thinking of them.  Soon its a few hours, then days, etc.  That person will always pop back into your mind over your life but the emotions will be less fierce.  The thoughts, and cravings, will do the same.

[jlbsdaddy]

May next yr bring all of us seeking inner strength without drugs peace and good times. Happy new year. I was a big time pill addict who went cold turkey a few weeks and feel really really good. Sometimes I need the sleep so take a advil pm or benadryl. Helps. If u r quitting pills or thinking about it. How about stopping now and taking the next three days to Ed and start the new yr with a new direction. We will survive the wds. Good luck to all

[Edi_C]

Thank you so much everyone for your support!! Stay Strong and Stay Clean and always remember you are Loved!! Look to Jesus we you are down and he will lift you up!!

[ThisIsIt983]

Hi Edi,

Thanks for update. Cold turkey is very hard and the fact that he made it to day 4 is awesome! I also wanted to say how blessed he is to have you as his wife. You both are so strong and inspirational to me and all of us on here struggling with this addiction!

Happy New Years to both of you!    Katie

[Amaryllis1974]

thanks for the update!!!
Tell him how much we care!
Best, and Happy new year!!!
Amy

[Edi_C]

Sorry I did not update yesterday, it is the end of the year and I have alot of paperwork to do at work had no time to update!! Joey is doing Great (I think) it is still rough for him but I believe it is getting easier for him. He is on day 4 He has been staying busy going to work and doing things around the house. He looks better and seems to have more energy today than a few days ago!!! I am so proud of him I know it is hard for him I can see it in his face but, he is a very strong man and I know he can do this!!!

[jlbsdaddy]

Wow I'm 3 weeks off of 250mgs of oxycodone. Been using for 4 years. I did it cold turkey and it sucked and I didn't sleep and crapped all day. But i lots of advice from many boards. I expected hell got through he'll and what doesn't kill me will make me stronger. But u have to go to a local NA now. Right now. U will be received like u wouldn't believe with love and support from others like u. That will be ur begging to your new way of thinking. U will live and get on the web now find an NA be u.

[downinthedumps1968]

Hey Joey,
ThisIsIt is right, you're probably through the worst physical part of it at this point. You've done really well to stay away for 3 years and going through all of this again will hopefully keep you away from another relapse in part. As for the other part, you are right to look at the mentality of your drug seeking behavior. A therapist who is trained in addiction has helped me a lot. I've had to consider why I've needed to numb myself from life's trials and tribulations. Maybe through therapy, you could find out what is at the root of your need for these evil pills. Another thing that worked for me when cravings initially gave me trouble after detox was to repeat something to myself, like a mantra: "I don't need that. I'm not in physical pain. That stuff is for bad pain, not what I'm feeling."  Positive Self Talk will work too if you work at it. Great job and great courage for doing it yourself!

[ThisIsIt983]

Hi Joey,

I don't know how much help I will be because I am currently weaning off of the oxys. But as someone who has gone c/t I know it gets better after day 3. Days 2 and 3 are usually the worst and from there it is all downhill. Tomorrow you should start feeling better. And even better the next. Just keep yourself hydrated.

I also want to say Congrats to you for stopping cold after 3 yrs! Very hard to do. Yeah it's hell for sure and then some! There is much support here!
Keep posting! Wish I had known about this site 2 yrs ago when I went thru it. I think reading and posting on here will help with some of the drug seeking mentality. It is only normal after 3 yrs and in the middle of a detox. Just remember if you pick up now you will only have to go through this all over again and day 3 is almost over.  

Good Luck and God Bless

[pharma9]

Joey...I see the way your wife supports you in your healing and in your mind she and the family should be more important than that stupid buzz from drugs.Make up your mind that drugs will no longer be a part of your life and that you can function better without them.You no longer have a need for drugs and must want the clean life more than the drug.That beautiful wife should be incentive enough for you to keep on the wagon.Just think about how much better your relationship will be now that you are clean and when you get over the rough bits.Did you read guv's post.He says it all....why the time is now to quit drugs and stay off them.Congrats on 3 days and work hard for many more.