How to quite hydrocodone/vicodin??? HELP!

[MCTX09]

Hello all.  I am new to this so any suggestions, tips, tricks or helpful ideas would be very, very much appreciated.  Just as a little background for anyone reading this, I am 25 and have a very addictive personality and so does my wife.  I was one of those kids that used the "gateway" drug marijuana when I was young.  It eventually led my wife and I to do bigger and badder things....  crystal meth.  My wife and I have since kicked that addiction, however hard it was, and the few short-term relapses I had but we are done which I guess you could say is a huge accomplishment, considering how few people ever really get off such an evil and addictive drug like crystal meth.  When I met my wife, she was addicted to dilaudid (I think that's how you spell it) real bad.  I was able to get her off of them and her and I were clean for a while.  She then went to a doctor and came home one day with a prescription for 180 10mg Hydrocodone (blue footballs).  I, growing up had never taken any type of pill as weird as that sounds but this was the beginning.  WE starting taking these one at a time, which slowly over the past 8 years has led to taking 9-13 a day for me and as much as 19-22 a day for her.  She does not work so she has nothing to do all day but take these things, and I pretty much "have" to take these to make myself get up and go to work every day.  I have put myself in such financial trouble taking out loans just to buy pills.  I will buy any pain pill I can find no matter how much it costs.  I at times have gone and spent more than $390 at one time for pills.  We have taken any and every pill I can find and afford.  I cannot continue living my life like this.  I today have taken the last pill I want to take and I am looking for some guidance or tips as I begin this long hard journey.  Today is Saturday and all I can think about right now is how I am going to go to work on Monday without any pills......  I do not have health insurance so I cannot check into any kind of rehab program.  The bad thing about this is, I have to get myself off of them so I can then start working on getting my wife off of them.  I look forward to hearing anything anyone can tell me to help with this goal.  I want to be clean, I want to feel as like I CAN get up and do something without these things.  I want to feel happy because I AM happy, not because I the 3 pills I just took have kicked in.  Hopefully someone who has been in my shoes will read this and has some very encouraging words or methods used to kick this psychological and physical dependency.  Thank you.

[scaredmom330]

welcome and congrats on getting of crystal meth...I would agree with the tapering but would suggest your wife does the same thing with you. stock up on plenty of fluids, read the thomas recipe and  Amino Acid Protocol at the bottom right. remember to be strong, take it one day at a time,, I know you can do this..keep posting and reading post.

[bluespence]

I would suggest a taper since you can't miss work. That way you will still be able to function. You will still have w/d's, but not as bad! Good luck!!

[nurseone]

First of all welcome to this forum. You will find a ton of support and congrats on taking this first step to ask for help. I dont know how to tell you that you will be fine to go to work on monday. If you are determined to stop then you will go through withdrawls and that will make you feel like you have the extreme flu. Can you take off a few days from work? Reach out to anybody close to you to help support you? Is your wife willing to do it with you?  There is a Thomas recipe  on here that helps with withdrawls and maybe you can go talk with a Doctor about helping you with the withdrawls. I am on day 5 and am feeling a lot better now. The other thing is that even though you will feel horrible for a few days you will get your life Back!!  Take one day at a time or one second at a time but dont give up~  we are all here for you.