Hydroco Withdrawal

[steveh444]

I am in day 2 of a cold turkey attempt off of hydroco 6-120mg / day.
I took 30mg Monday and 30mg on Tuesday. Yesterday and today I have taken none at all. I am in pretty rough shape and was hoping someone could tell me if I can do this safely myself??

[LostNoMore]

Hey Steve. Congrats on wanting to be clean.  No question, detox is no picnic. I looked at it this way; What's worse? A few days of hell, or a life of madness and misery followed by death or a psych ward?  I had to get honest with myself about my addiction; it was going to either kill me, put me in jail or an
institution. I've been where you are right now my friend. Please don't prolong your agony. Stop taking pills and cut off your sources. You can do the detox.
Stop reading about how hellish it is and simply treat the symptoms as they appear. There's a ton of info here about how to minimize the W/Ds. You've cleared the first hurdle...you want it. Now take it!

[steveh444]

Even as I was writing the last couple of lines in my last post I know I was copping out. I am looking for someone who knows to tell me "yeah its ok to backslide 20-30mg / day" without endangering my progress so far. I am fully aware of the drugs insidious nature, and how it is too easy to just go back to the way I was. But I do truly want and NEED to quit, not just for me but for my family. I am just so confused and depressed right now. If it were not for my wife and you guys I would have no chance at this!!

[steveh444]

Heres a summary. Over the course of 3-4 years I built up a resistance to the tune of 60-120mg / day. I took almost every single day during that period with the exception of a day or 2 here and there. Then last Sunday the 12th I ran out of pills and completely out of money. So I didn't take any on Sunday. As I have gotten so good at I hustled up some Sunday night and knew I had to save them for work. So I took 30mg on Mon, and 30mg on Tues. I knew I was seeing my Dr on WED and was figuring to re-up then. My Dr said he wasnt going to refill my script for the hydro. So I didnt take all of Wed. And it was then that I decided mabee it was time to quit. Went all day Thurs without taking. It was Thurs that it really began to set in what I was getting into. I began to suffer terribly. I read all day about what to expect and eventually found you great people here. I had taken half a day off from work on Wed for the DR appt, and couldn't work Thurs. I had to go in Fri no matter what and I did. It was pure hell, and that was when I got creative and got my buddy to bring me the 22.5mg up to work and I took them immediately. I am basically a weak person and could not stand the suffering anymore. So here I am Sat AM, feeling guilty, no hydro, and wandering where I go from here. Have I ruined my recovery?? If I keep breaking down and taking small doses here and there can this still work?? I know there is always tommorrow but cannot imagine putting myself through this again so I feel I have to keep this up right now!!! HELP

[minn66]

Don't look back... focus on today. You can do this! One minute, one hour, one day at a time. Great to see you posted and keep on posting! :)

[MikeInFrance]

You can move forward and fight through the rough days and nights buy if but if you are leaving your avenues open to get more pills and even utilizing those avenues then how do you expect to get past this? The way of thinking about this needs to change. If you just think to yourself that 'if it gets too bad then I'll call someone and get more' then you can't do this. You need to commit to it and finally decide enough is enough. It's what I did around 34 Days ago and never looked back. It was hard to say the least the first week but I am so thankful today that I did it and I never want to experience that again! You need to seriously think about what I am saying steve.... It's not for me! It has to be about you and what you want for your future. It starts now!

[steveh444]

You guys have been so great so Im gonna come clean, Im feeling terrible guilt because you guys have been so kind to me. Yesterday morning when this got unbearable I called a friend who bought me 3 7.5's up to my work. I just couldnt handle it anymore so I took the 22.5mg. I guess thats why my appetite had come back a little by the time I got off work. But after I ate I got nauseous and puked.
Tonight it has gone back to hell. Ive been eating bananas and taking a multi vitamin complex but the RLS is back with a vengeance and Ive had 3 charlie horses that lasted about 45 mins total. Im fixin to take some ambien and try to go back to sleep. I need alot more strength than I feel I have. The constant pain and pressure especially in my abdomen and legs is unbearable