I feel like i'm dying

[KirstenHere]

my hands are sshaking so bad i dont know if i can even type this. my story in short is about 5 years aog i started using darvocets for some pain i had in my ovary. i was on them for about 3 years wen ii finally took myself off cold turket. the withdrawls were bad, but not that bad. not as bad as this, thats for sure. i relapsed a few times but nothing major,  nothing that cause withdrawls that bad. back in june i started to take vicodin, have some medical problems and a lot of pain. well, 2 5/500 a days last for a tille while, then a few more, then few more, then u go to the ES, then you go to the 10/325...percs, oxy, morphine pills, you know the routine. I'm now up to between 12/15 vics 10/325 a day. if i can't get them, i'll buy percs or oxy, or morphine, whatever is availble...but my choose is those vics. I LOVE THEM! Oh i love them sooo much! They give me so much energy to do the tins i need to do. well, the other day ifound my self stealing a bunch from my own mother. one thing i have never been is a theif. after i took the last one i just sat and told myself...this is insane you have to stop. so here i am, day 2 and feel like i'm about to flippin die. all i want is a handful of those pills and i know all will be better...but i also kow i have to stay strong. i talked to my mom a bit ago and she knew i was sick...she said...oh, come over and i'll give you some vics. hahahaha, yea, i was tempted, trust me...i had to tell her that i stoled some and that i am detoxing now. wow, that was hard. she has been my main suppler. so, here i am, alone and feeling like i'm about to die from this. this is horrible!!! Id take detox from those crummy darvocets any day compared to this. oh, what have i done to myself? i do not want to do this naymore. and form what i can read, day 3 and 4 are better. HOW will i make it thorugh them? My hands are shaking,my body aches like you wouldnt believe, my stomach hurts, head, i have anxiety off the charts and i cant stop thinking about those stupid litle pills. my legs wont stop shaking...how do i make them stop? please, someone help me..and words will work for me right now. thank you

[noelangel]

A doctor friend of mine said put icey/hot on your legs or those heat patches for sore limbs,,she said it will work jst like the heating pads except ou can't walk around with those pads because of the electrical things...that is what i am going to try..

[Sarah231]

I hope you are hanging in there.

And YES, we have been there.
We lived.

Just remember, every day you're fighting more of that drug out of your system.

[Firefaery1023]

How are you doing?

[spacecadette]

hey..i'm so sorry you feel so crappy....we have ALL been there....it is awful, it is hard, and I know that every minute feels like it's forever.  I know for me that the nights were the worst.  I would have to stay on the couch at night becuase i tossed and turned so much that my significant other would NEVER get sleep...I would just lay in the dark, pin my hands down,  and and stare at the clock...minute by minute.....mind racing, body sweating....i thought it would NEVER end.  But i promise you that it will!!! And as hard as it is to stay positive when we feel so awful....It is absolutely amazing how you will feel when you look back and see how far you've come....you'll stop the dread of.."i have to get off of these someday...I can't avoid the withdrawl.....Where am i getting my next fix......can't go away for the weekend becuase i'm short on pills and can't get more till sunday...etc.." you'll no longer be a prisoner to these awful things......stay on track..post as much as you like...we're all here for you

[Firefaery1023]

Hey I  have fibromyalgia too.  My dr is going to do a lidocaine infusion on me May 13th to help with the pain non-narcotic.  Good luck with the cymbalta my best friend takes it and has great results.

[hopsing94]

Kirsten you need to sit in a hot bath tub for as long as you can and as hot as you can. Find a good book to read to pass the time. Vitamins and water.