Just have to get this out...Some one please help me.

[monkey231]

I am so frusterated!  I tryed to just stop....HAHAHA....that lasted till about 5:00pm today then called up a "friend" drove an hour and a half to get some Diloudeds, my body was shaking and I couldnt breath, my legs were aching and I was freezing cold but sweating....I sat in the car with my "friend" the second he gave me the pills I crushed some of them up and snorted them.....Then I sat back in the drivers seat and started thinking about my little boy.  And how earlier that day I was blowing bubbles and he was running around the room laughing and clapping his hands togeather busting the bubbles.  I dont know why I had to leave him to go get pills.  What the hell is wrong with me?  What kind of mother would rather drive an hour and a half just to buy a bunch of pills then sit at home playing with her son.  I love my son to death, but Im starting to think there is really something wrong with me.  I cant honestly say that I give my son my best, and as much as it hurts to say it, my son deserves better than me.  Its killing me.  I've been crying for hours.  I love my son, I want to give him everything.  Why did I have to leave him today over drugs?  Im not that kind of person.  I grew up with my parents always drinking and doing drugs in my house.  I swore I wouldnt be that person.  But I am.  I hate myself.  Im ruining my sons life....And the worst part is that sitting hear thinking about all this, I should throw away the pills right now, and just be done with it....But instead, Im snorting more so that I dont have to feel this way....What the hell is wrong with me?

[catchiec]

As long as you only tke Methadone for no more than 5 days you will have no withdrawals from it! I got off oxy's like this, so did my boyfriend and so did several of my friends. No missed time from work, no pain, no withdrawals, JUST YOUR LIFE BACK IN 5 DAYS! The people who tell you you get the worst withdrawals from Methadone are people who have been taking it for a while and become physically dependent on it. Even three weeks is to long to take Meth. BUT I PROMISE a thousand times over if you do what me and my bf and 4 of my friends did you will be done with pills in 5 days. 25mgs of Meth the first day, 20mgs the second, 15mgs the third, 10mg on the fourth and finally 5mg on the 5th day and then stop! You will be off both pills in 5 days and no withdrawals whatever. This is what works and the only way to get clean in 5 days without needing any pills ever. For anybody who tells Monkey that Meth has the worst withdrawal symptons ever, this is true only if you become dependent on it. YOU DO NOT BECOME DEPENDENT ON IT AFTER 5 DAYS DROPPING 5 MGS EACH DAY!  Monkey you will not have withdrawls and you will have your life back if you take my advice.

[swtbreezie]

HI Monkey,
I'm sorry I haven't been onsince night before last.  I had to get my things moved and everything in order.  So I could get a pass to go out of state for 30 days to see my fiancee.  ai got it done and took off.  I am on probation, I got stopped 2 and a half years ago just before the deaths of my hubby and daughter.  I sure don't want anything like that to happen again.  I want to get this DWI behind me so I can move.  So I have to be good.  BUT, I KNOW you can do this, you have the want to we all can see that.  You have made the decision to stop you just need to go ahead with it.  I promise in a week you will say I went through hell but I wonder now why I didnt do this a very long time ago.  YOU CAN DO THIS!
Not just for your son but for you too!
swtbreezie

[toxictome]

Welcome to the merry-go-round of addiction. When you are ready...you WILL stop...you are getting your mindset in place..If the drugs don't kill you first, the guilt and shame will. YOU just  have to make your plan and stick with...
STOP crushing and snorting your pills..
Keep posting when the temptation gets too much..
YOU CAN DO THIS>>>and we will be here for you!!!
Good Luck!!

[wait2long]

What to expect?  well it really can depend on your drug of choice and how long you have been addicted and how high you spike your doses...
if your DOC is methadone- expect severe WD's for up to 6 weeks, depending on dose  length of time etc...

if your doc was percocets or vikes- a week or so.

if your drug of choice is dilaudid...i am not sure, you may want to do some research, i am not that familiar with dilaudid, i have done it, but it wasnt an all the time thing...

what is your drug of choice?
how long have you been using (addicted)?
what is your normal dose, how high of a dose do you take?
if you want, i can look some stuff up for you and maybe that would help give you an idea of what to expect?  dilaudid is a much stronger drug than most mentioned here , other than the methadone...so just let me know or shoot me a private message if you would like me to do some research for you so you will have some idea of what to expect...i'm here for you!!!

[catchiec]

I Told you get 2 methadone 40s. take 25mg the first day 20mg the second day 15mg the third, 10 mg on the 4th and 5 on the 5th and last day. You will have no withdrawals at all! end of story. Methadone for 5 days and you will skip all oxy withdrawals just dont tke meth for more then 5 days or you might become dependent on it.

[troubleinohio]

i cnt type well rght now (broken thumb/hand/shoulder injuuryy) but ur story really stuck a chord w/me. i once got up @5 a.m.        2 drive 40+ miles to the ghetto 2 get some pills (im a country woods person so the city is a huge turn off 2 me)). i felt so guilty & horrible knowwwing my 2 lil boyz were home in bed with their dad while momma was sneaking out gettng stupid pills

wish i culd write longerr but cant. just know my thughts R w/U and U can do this.