Just took my last 2 oxycodone 10/325

[nike123456]

Just popped my last 2 pills.  I am so scared about tomm :(  I been down this road a few times and know the next 5 days will be hell :(  but i finally know i need to let this drug go.  its starting to affect my family live, especially my relationship with my amazing wife.  She knows I take the pills but has no idea i been abusing  them :(  I've become a monster and i feel like I am going to lose her and my 3 beautiful kids.  I've been emotionally and mentally abusive towards her.  I been crying all day and feel like a dog for mistreating her so badly.  I pray GOD gives me the strength and courage to face this and JUST LET THESE PILLS GO.  

Been taking 8-10 pills a day for 12 months :(  

[nike123456]

Hey Friends,

sorry i disappeared, but i had a really busy summer.  I took the time out to count my Clean days.  I stopped counting after 60 day.  WOW today is day 120.  Damn I'm the man!!!  I cant even start to explain what a wonderful and amazing feeling this is.  I did meeting for 4 weeks and stopped.  I just wake up every morning and first thing I do is get on my knees and thank GOD for all he has done for me and Pray to keep me and my family healthy.  And the last thing I do is get on my knees and Thank GOD for a wonderful Day and to keep me strong so i can take care of my wife and my 3 kids and I go to bed.  I stopped counting days because i started to read the bible and started to go to church.  The meetings were great at first, but i felt like i need to forget that part of my life and stop rehashing it every single day.  GOD and the belief he truly loves me and wants whats best for me really helped me get thru this.  I am not perfect, but i am very confident in myself to say i have come a long way.  Best of Luck to all.  

[gnarly_1]

Hey Nike  good to see you great to see you clean  your off to a great start  im also happy your going to get to a meeting....it is the single best thing you can do for long term recovery....dont be aprehensive about the meeting  for the first time in your life you can share your ''dirty little secret''....this will give you a place to share with others that will understand what your going threw  you will be welcome with a hug and just in time to pick up your 30 day keytag  with time you will get a collection of them...your recovery has been progressing great  alot of it has been your overwhelming  positive attitude thanks for being part of my recovery  keep posting for support....ooo and please post your feelings about the meeting a lot of people will be lissinig...........Gnarly

[nike123456]

Hey Guys,

Makes me happy that my story is helping so many ppl.  Lannspr, I am feeling great and have more energy every single day.  Its amazing how your body has the power to recover.  1 hell of a machine GOD has put together :):):)
Almost 30 days clean and feeling great!  Tuesday will be my first meeting.  I have to say i am feeling anxious about it.  1 thing to hide behind a computer and share you story, but actually facing ppl out in the open should be interesting :(

damn if i can make it thru withdrawals, what a little public humiliation :) LOL LOL LOL

GOD it feel good to laugh...i cried so much i forgot how great it feels to be happy.

to all the newbies,

free yourselves of this wicked cycle that will destroy you.  dont be scared of withdrawals...just take it 1 day at a time.  pray a lot and surround yourselves with positive energy and ppl who really care and love you.  

Be back soon.

[pillguy]

Read all your posts.  Great to see another one of us getting paroled from pill hell.  Nicely done!!

[Tina6444]

Nike I just wanted to say congratulations!! 27 days?!??? Impressive sir!! Your posting was so and still is so influential on me. I thank you for your willpower and strength because it has helped me get one day further in my journey.  You have worked hard !

[jlannspr]

How are you doing?