Overdose and letting your Guard down .

[conhall]

Yesterday I went to my usual group meeting and I got the horrible news, another person in my group has died . Shook me to my very core, this is the second person that has been close to me,from my group, her life is over just by not only relapsing but also killing herself . It happened on July 4th she was at a BBQ and alcohol was present and she decided one drink wouldnt hurt she ended up drinking more than one and also with the alcohol her guard came down she decided a few pills might be great also.  Her daughter found her on July 5th dead in her bed.
She was sober almost 1 year her year was August 4th so close and has been in my group since day 1 of her journey she was  so full of life and had done so much to take her life back. I feel like this is a bad dream and I cant shake the way I am feeling I cried all night, I saw so much of myself in this girl we both had a similar story became very close and a great support system for each other. All night I kept fighting the urge to pick up the phone and call her shes the one I would call when I was feeling like this. But shes Gone and I am truly at a loss,
Please never let your guard down I wish she had called me I wish I known, problem is she didnt call me and I didnt know till it was too late and now my friend is gone, I know she thought she knew she could handle it but look what happened..........

[VICourageous]

Oh, This is so sad and I am so sorry. It really hits home for me too. It just goes to show that we can not have just One of Anything!!! It will either take us from this earth or start the Addiction up all over. I know this is really, really hurting you right now as I feel your pain too. Please, Please be safe my friend.
May the Lord carry us all in times like this.
Vickie

[LeaAnn807]

Oh.....that is awful!  I am so very sorry for your loss.  I know it happens all the time, but it's hard when it's someone so close.  We really, truly must never let our guard down.  It's the nature of the beast to take our lives if we do!

I am saying a prayer for you!

[laurel453]

this is heartbreaking, conhall... i am terribly sorry.. we are used to such high doses than relapses with od are more common than we think, our hearts are not used to high doses after being clean for a time, i guess... so sad. Guards up all of us !

[conhall]

Thank you for your post,  and you are right it does happen and it happens to anyone doesnt matter what color,race, how much money you have or dont have. My heart is so broken, I feel shaken to my very core she was sitting her with me in my kitchen the day before and helping me fold laundry, I Just feel so incredibly sad .

[ricart70]

So sorry to hear this conhall  .It happens more than people think. Do not blame yourself. There really is nothing you could have done in this .  Again sorry  friend