You REALLY have to get rid of them. There is no reason to lose your clean time! Pain isn't worth it! I know it hurts. I've been there, but the pills aren't going to help....only temporarily, and then you are back in the same boat. What will that accomplish?
the pain will be with you when they wear off and then so will the guilt .. Do yourself a favor and flush..
You dont have to lose it. Come on, fight hard. You know what you have to do......walk into that bathroom and toss those pills into the toilet and flush. I know you are in pain but these pills will not solve the problem.
I know all of this but I can't believe how hard this is after all this time I thoght I was WAY past this. I feel so ashamed for even thinking about taking them but the pain is f' ed up. When I went CT and dumped 35 80 mg oxys into the bay I felt empowerment, but now I don' know I am losing it.
Don't take them! Taking them after all your clean time will make you feel sooo much worse. Get rid of the pills. It may sound great now but once they wear off and you're in the same spot you will feel worse bc everything you accomplished by getting off the pills will be undone.