Please give me strenght

[quitinoxys]

I have been on travel ALL week and my back is in extreme pain. I went to the spa in the hotel and had a soak in the hot tub and got a massage. This is where I meet one of my clients and started to talk to him about my chronic back pain. He told me he has the same problem and he has been going to PM for years. I told him I had to do a seminar tomorrow and wish this pain would go away so I can get through it. I explained to him my bout with oxys and he said "I know but when you were taking them I bet your quality of life was probably better then it is now". I told him not really because I was liviing (or barely living) in a drug haze and thats why I stopped taking my pain meds. Keep in mind this is a man who I have emmense professional rs respect for. He told me he has resigned himself to the fact that he will haqve to live the rest of his life on pain meds and thats it. With that being said he handed 4 pills and told me that these won't screw you up like those oxys, and since I respect him I put them in my pocket and told him "If I really need them I might take them". I went back to my hotel room and did a google pill ID on them and found out that they are opana. I am now sitting hear starring at them as my back still hurts like h3!!. Since I am away from my support system I don't have anyone to help me not to give in to the pain. As all of you long time guys know I had a rough time kicking this crap, I dont want to take a step backwards. Today I am 130 days clean but my addict brain is saying one isn't going to hurt you, but I know thats BS. Siiting here typing is the only thing stopping from swallowing them. I thought this was all over but I guess addiction is rearing its ugly head again. So please GIVE me strenght---quitin

[dominosarah]

FLUSH THEM NOW.  They will call your name until you do.  Remember 1 is too many and 1000 isnt enough.  You are 130 days clean and you can make it to 131.  The more you look at those pills the worse your back will hurt.  Your addict brain is screaming at you.  Scream back at it and FLUSH

[LeaAnn807]

Allright, you have to get rid of them.  Flush them down the toilet right now.  Take 800mg of ibuprofen.  DO NOT take the Opana!  It won't help.  When he told you that they won't mess you up like oxy, he was lying to you or doesn't know what he is talking about.

You have a choice to make here.  You gotta make the right one for YOU!

[quitinoxys]

I know but I am getting weak, I thought I can just blow it off but now when tey are sitting in front of me its hard. I look at them and think if I take them the pain will be gone and then think no it will just begin

[FassFeat]

Don't do it. Find another way to deal with it. That is why you have aftercare, the only reason you even considered accepting them was because of the client. Flush them and you will feel 10 feet tall. If you have to take something stronger than OTC stuff, at least get something from your Dr. , not something you have never taken and that wasnt prescribed to you. God Bless, Andrew

You have too much clean time.