Please help! Weaning off oxycodone

[Lovemomof2]

I am not really sure what to ask or what I am really looking for except some guidance and support. I am afraid to ask help elsewhere for a multitude of reasons. To make a long story short, I am addicted to oxycodone. This is terrible and not really even sure how things got to the point to where they are today. I used to be a first grade teacher and a now a stay at home mom to a 1 year old and almost 4 year old. I want off these stupid life controlling pills. I was taking probably 18 30mg pills a day (I didn't count for a long time....would just pop them like candy. Very stupid). I have decided to wean down and in the past week or so am taking about 12-13 a day. So I have weaned down about 6 30mg. I feel so terrible about myself. This is no way to live! I guess what I am looking for is support....does anyone know of a good taper plan? Any help is so much appreciated.

[Lovemomof2]

You are so right. I needed to hear that. It is so difficult to be good Lol! So far I have been spacing about every 4 hours. It gets hard toward the end, but I have been able to do it. I struggle with being good in the evening. Like right now. I would like to take more but am trying to remember my goal and remember that I will feel so much better about myself if I don't give in. I stuck to 12 today. I feel proud of that but I still need to get through the rest of the night. Need to distract myself.

[vicki595]

Okay, listen. If your head is still wanting the high and you're planning rewards for good behaviour...the taper will not work. You need to believe you're getting away from the addiction.

I'm helping you to taper because it's more comfortable than CT. But you can't be chasing a high. And don't take three at once either and don't spike your doses!   Be a good girl here...  LOL

Sit down with a paper and pencil and figure your taper out. Take the same amount every so many hours but be specific on the hours between. If its every four hours, stick to that. Don't push it further.

The object of this is to keep you just a step away from wd's and comfortable. It's not about euphoria, okay?   I know you know this...and I know you can do this!

[Lovemomof2]

Thank you SO much for your kind words- really helps me. I feel so awful about the situation I have put myself in. Your encouraging words help!!! I have moments were I am unsure if I will be able to do this, makes me feel like I am making progress and that it just might take awhile. I wish your son the best. Having your support is invaluable to him. You are saving him! Life on pills is no life at all!

[Compassion22]

Followed the posts - so proud of you and the progress you are making. I came here to find information about tapering off Hydro for my teenaged son. Since life saving surgery he's been on narcotics for over two years. The tapering discussion was helpful, thanks vicki555 - as is the support you are receiving, but most importantly your honesty about how hard it is to taper. Keep up the great work, and please know that you are providing inspiration and information to a teenaged boy ready to find out what life is like without narcotics.

[Lovemomof2]

Part of my problem is I think I am still chasing the "feel good" aspect of taking pills. I need to remember that my goal is to feel normal I think. I have been thinking if I hold off I could take more in the evening as sort of a reward. So sick of these things.

[Lovemomof2]

I will try 12. I usually take 2 and then start taking another one within the hour and then another, ect. I just now took 3, thinking I would wait at least 4 hours before taking the next dose? Does this sound right? I was starting to feel bad before I took my last dose because I had waited almost 5 1/2 hours.