Please help! Weaning off oxycodone

[Lovemomof2]

I am not really sure what to ask or what I am really looking for except some guidance and support. I am afraid to ask help elsewhere for a multitude of reasons. To make a long story short, I am addicted to oxycodone. This is terrible and not really even sure how things got to the point to where they are today. I used to be a first grade teacher and a now a stay at home mom to a 1 year old and almost 4 year old. I want off these stupid life controlling pills. I was taking probably 18 30mg pills a day (I didn't count for a long time....would just pop them like candy. Very stupid). I have decided to wean down and in the past week or so am taking about 12-13 a day. So I have weaned down about 6 30mg. I feel so terrible about myself. This is no way to live! I guess what I am looking for is support....does anyone know of a good taper plan? Any help is so much appreciated.

[Ballgame]

Give yourself about 3-4 days before lowering your dose again so your body doesn't go crazy. I'm not a dr but if you drop too fast the WD could be bad
Just luck and keep posting

[Meagan1]

Hi guys. On day 4 here from opiates. About a 300 mg a day situation. I did think for the first three days that I was dying. I made a bed in my bathroom so I could he near my best friend..the toilet! Today, I can't believe this, but I forced myself to sit outside in the sunlight and though I am sweaty and weak and can't eat yet, I think there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I suffer from life long..since birth medical conditions causing severe chronic pain. But as bad as the pain is, it is nothing compared to the emotional.and spiritual pain I have suffered as a result of becoming addicted and abusing the meds. I can't write more, cuz I'm too shaky, but wanted to share this if it might help anyone as well as would love advice if you have any. Thank you.

[Lovemomof2]

This makes me feel better- thank you. :) I am going to follow your good advice. Maybe I could check in here....that would make this easier for me. I feel a little less hopeless since checking in here. I want to do this.

[Pat1956100]

You don't deserve to suffer.  You didn't plan on getting addicted.  Stop telling yourself that.  Congratulate yourself on your decision to quit.  
If you deserve to suffer then all of us do and you don't think that we should suffer, do you?   I don't think so.
It happens to a lot of people.  People from all walks of life.  The pills lie to us and tell us that they make us feel better, give us more energy, let us take better care of our homes and children.  Then they turn on us.

[Lovemomof2]

I would really like to take the 9 months, but there is no way I could afford to do that....unless I was really weaned down far enough by then.  I understand the reasons for taking that long. It makes sense. I do feel like I deserve to suffer as I got myself into this horrible mess!!!! So hopeful I can wean down....so scary.

[Nighthawk61]

As long as you keep going in the right direction, you're doing a hell of a good job. I agree you have all of the motivation that you need, Best wishes. Keep up the good work. Do you have an NA or AA Big Book? I'm sure it would help and prepare you for aftercare.