Got through the w/d but what about the depression?

[princess13]

Hello everyone, I have been taking vicodins off and on for 2 years. Started out as fun with my hubby in college (all of our friends were doing it) and it seemed like it would give me this wave of energy. About a year ago, I was planning my wedding, working full time evenings, going to school, etc. and I got a prescription of vicodin from my MD for pain from a pulled muscle. Well I started with taking 2-3 a day but the last 6 months have been taking up to 6 a day. My wedding is over, my job is so stressful, and I finally realized I had a serious problem with these evil pills. They were no longer making my feel good but just "normal". I stopped taking them exactly 2 weeks ago today and the first week was hell with the w/d. I lost a lot of weight, couldn't eat, sleep, but was tired all the time, constant diarrhea, felt the creepy crawling all over my body. I managed through it with the help of my husband (he is wonderful) and luckily I had vacation time built up through work to take so that helped. My problem now is the severe depression that has not let up. I don't want to do the things I enjoy daily, like movies, exercising, cooking, shopping, all I want to do is lay around the house and I have no energy. Please give me advice on this. I have to go back to work and I am so tired and I want my normal life back. I have tried the supplements but they don't seem to be working. Any advice?

[enemy48]

Depression was my biggest complaint after the w/d's.  But I realized that I still wasn't sleeping, so I was left w/no energy which lead me to being lazy & depressed.

I got on an anit-depress.  

I also changed everything about my life.

Best Wishes.

[dove3053]

I had a problem with depression also. When I was able too I just tried to push through it and it worked for the most part. I kept a list of things I needed to do everyday and that seemed to help. I also believe exercise works.

Good Luck, This to shall pass. Your lucky you have a husband who loves you and is helping.

Dove

[worried878]

I am an analyzer and this something I tried to analyze after the WDs and i was thinking clearly..."What was I like before I started using?"   I know I must have wanted more energy because that is the main reason i kept them around for so long....but i was really very active before and worked out just about everyday...went out with friends and worked full time...so I must have had energy before using...then the depression issue i also analyzed...I have always been prone to situational depression, like after a break up, when i am sick or hurting, sometimes just had gloomy days....my depression post pills is virtually gone I think, still have my days but i think i always did....my energy level is much better...not back to where it was but i have come to terms with not having the energy i had on pills as it was not normal..i was the enegizer bunny!.....i am getting closer to my energy level that i had before the pills but not quite there yet...has been 2 months...time to heal is what i am thinking....also not good to think too much   LOL

[NautyOne]

Hi Princess,

Although, everyone is different.  I went through the same thing.  It took months for it to go away.  You are mourning a loss inside and it can take up to as much as a year....and there is no guarantee that you will ever be the same.......the same as you knew yourself on pills........thats why we get addicted.  They give us something that probably wasn't there before we started taking them.  That's why some refer to them as the "happy pill"  Time is the only healer and you have to push yourself.....I know how easier said than done that is, but you will never be the person you were on pills........not to say you wont be happy and full of energy, it will just be different.  It's an adjustment and I had a very difficult time coming to terms with that, but it's not worth going back to the pills.  When you really think about it, and how bad it really is verses when you were taking them.  Not the feeling you were getting or you'll be in trouble, but rather the serious emotional part of it.  I had to realize that it is a double edge sword........I wasn't happy when I was off them and I was really unhappy on them, so I had to take the lesser of the two evils and take the unhappy v/s the REALLY unhappy ,  Just keep telling yourself everyday that it's not real and that your mind has to heal from all the damage we do to it with those monsters.  It's just going to take time, but it will happen.  I wish I had a magic wand to make it go away, but maybe thats our little punishment for abusing the wonderful thing that God gave us......our mind, body and soul.  Be patient.  I promise you will feel 10,000 times worse if you go back to the false reality.  Take it slow and fake it till you make it.

I wish you well,

Luv,
Nauty............

[kim715]

Congratulations on your 2 weeks!!!!!!!!! It's great that your husband stood by you,so did mine that helped so much. Being clean is new to me too.I took vic's too,and loved all that energy.Right now I'm 11 days off of methodone [I chickened out when I started withdrawling from the pills,BIG MISTAKE.] My energy is nowhere like it used to be when I took the pills,and to be honest it has been so long since I haven't had a drug in my system,I don't remember what natural energy feels like. Everyday I just try topush myself through what I need to do . I figure it is going to take some time to get used to this new me.Plus I'm a little older now so I just do what I have to do right now,nothing more.I'm just getting to know the new me,and I figure everything else will come in time. Goodluck!!!!!!!

[mommy52713]

have you considered getting on a antidepresant?i know i hve had to do this and it really helped. good luck holly