This has to be it

[Ams1265]

well I'm 2 days in again. Been taking roxy30's oxy 80's  and when I can't get them a bunch of 10 mg percs. This all started about 4 years with an easy hookup that never went away. Just recently I lost the woman I love more than anything because of these. This is about the tenth time I tryed to quit and I feel like I hit rock bottom. I can't even pay fir the smallest bills anymore and on top of it withdrawl is terrible. This isint me, I don't know when these things took such a hold on me but they have and my life has suffered. Quitting never was this hard a couple years ago now almost impossible. Guess I'm just afraid I'll go 7 or 8 days, tell myself it can be done and go right back to them. I want this to be over I don't know how I got here but I am. Even worse I don't know how to get back to who I once was.

[Ams1265]

Ya know, the funny thing is (or not so funny) even after letting her slip away, pills were still my priority. It's only now I have really come to terms with the addiction that I have. I have this time, different from the rest, cut off people who influenced me in the past. I never really wanted to talk about it because it made it that much harder. I'm going through it cold turkey, withdrawl or no withdrawl. This is a mess I got myself into and I am the only one who can get out of it. This is also the first time quitting I've asked for support. Be it not from strangers but from people who know and haved lived the struggle. All of your input at anytime of the day is appreciated. Good luck to everyone going through the same torment I am experiencing right now and for weeks, if not months to come.

[Thecommonoffice]

When I asked my sister how she quit coke after college, she said simply "move away from your dealer".  Look up the Thomas recipe.  Taper down slowly.  Try not to focus on your pain.  Another thread said to try not to talk about how you are feeling.  That is what these forums are for.  I know you.  You are nice looking, educated, afraid of your secret.  Remember all the days before you got into opiates?  You will deal with life after you quit the same way you dealt before you started.  And I really like this one:  You deserve to feel good just being yourself.  Even one positive move in the right direction: like making deals with your bill collectors will make you feel a million times better.  I am so sorry about your lost love.  That pain is worse that anything else and nothing makes it feel better but time.