Yes it is worth it.. but now, u understand addicts, and can give them the compassion they deserve... before we got ourselves into this mess, we where in able to understand and looked down our noses at them.. I sure don't know.. the why most people start is usually so innocent.. needed to keep up, get it done. It's a trap for sure.. I'm hoping guilt isn't knawing at u.. hang in there... day 7 for me was a mental battle. But this morning is much better for me.. physical symptoms of withdrawals I believe are a light eb and flow now.. we can do this :)
Day 5 feeling pretty ok. Yesterday I went to sigh up for twice a week drug testing and it's expensive and humiliating having someone watch you pee and of corse I had performance anxiety and couldn't go but I finally did . I can complain all I want but I got myself in this mess and I have face it like a woman and anything I have to go through to get my life back is worth it in the end.
I'm on day 5.. and it's much better for me today.. u can do this.. I have never went through wd before. And wow! Are they bad! I feel desperately bad for u.. I finally got a good night's rest last night.. hopefully u will too soon.. could of just as easy been me in jail.. but I was lucky. Or not lucky. I'd have quits sooner for sure.. blessings come in all kinds of pakages.. I think yours had a badge instead of a bow.. I know melatonin will help u relax. I've taken two 5mg at a time.. it a small help, but it's some relief.. I also take half a xanax. But I haven't needed any today.. my headache finally let up today.. I sat around with a hot rice bag on my head looking like a weirdo lol but it helped.. makes a moist heat.. hang in there!
Thank you! My legs are kicking so bad right now. My whole body is hurting . Withdrawals are coming on strong. This is only day 2 and I know it will get worse before it gets better but I keep telling myself , im so lucky ! I'm home with kids. I'm curled up on my couch with hot chocolate and if it wasn't for my family and Gods grace I'd still be laying on a filthy mat in a holding cell with no blanket and no pillow and nasty stale *** sandwhich 3 times a day for food and no water and suffering 10 times worse. I must never forget what I went through this weekend. This is not gonna be easy but I have the tools, the knowledge and the support to see it through. Jail or death, I've already done jail now and I don't want to die so it's now or never! Thanks again for all your support!
I'm so glad you are looking to the positive.. remember that cops name, and when you are clean 6 months go track him down and tell him thank u for the heart attack! Let him know it was the kick u needed.. :) I'm praying for u..
I have to tell you guys I got pulled over Saturday afternoon on a suspended license I didn't know about and the cop searched my purse and found 9 Vicodin and arrested me and I spent the weekend in jail. I just got home a few hours ago. I've never been to jail. I've managed to out smart , fool, the police for years , talking my way out of ****** up situations I've gotten myself into in the 13 years I've been abusing pills. But my run was up Saturday , there's was no getting out of it , I was caught and whole world collapsed. Sunday morning they set my bond, and it was a lot. They also took my car and phone and it seized them and I have to pay 250 plus to get my car back. My poor family had to struggle to come up with the money to get me out. I was charged with pos. of a controlled substance, a felony here in Michigan. The first night I was there I was so angry, it was the cops fault , he was ann ******* , I told myself. The next day I was feeling sorry for myself saying, why did this happen to me? I'm trying to quit, to ween myself down this isn't fair. This morning I woke up again in jail and i was so exhausted and dehydrated and also in full blown withdrawals I thought I was gonna die. I didn't know if I was gonna get bailed out I was freaking out. But then something came over me , like a light came over me and I just had this feeling that even if I don't get out it's gonna be ok. I'm exactly where I deserve to be and I need to face it like a women. I felt like it was an act of God that brought me to that jail cell. How long could I go on like this? Would I really be able to ween of pills like I planned. Well God said no . And God has given be many many opportunities to quit on my own and I couldn't . And now he means business! It's now or never. My got together and got me out and I realized also how many people I have in my corner. Fighting for me to be free from jail and free from addiction. I wasn't fooling anyone! They all knew! So now I have to deal with court , probation and drug testing twice a week. And I'm ok with it. It's the best thing that could happen to me. Going to jail this weekend saved my life.