agree with faith_
you have bunches praying.. dont substitute opiate for opiate..
u past the hard part like gnarly said..
u r loved
PS> You are so close to turning the corner. Do you think you could handle one more day to think it through? I will support you with whatever decision you make, everyone will. And besides, one day we will all go our seperate ways and this is your life that you have to live. I just want you to be sure of your decision. love and hugs! lyn
Don't apologize and don't feel guilty. You have to do what is best for you. My friend is doing the sub program and luckily this dr. only starts patients at 8mg and starts weaning them 1mg per week after the first initial 2 weeks. He requires them to go to 2 meetings per week and drug testing.
See, me and my friend are totally different. I knew ahead of time what I needed to do and my main concern was getting the pills out of my system so I did the 21 day taper. For her, she needed the time to get her head together. She was on much stronger stuff, methadone, roxy, whatever she could find on the street to keep her out of withdrawal. So, that is that. She knows that she will go through withdrawal from the sub when the time comes.
The main thing - are you sure this is what you want to do? You are so close to being off of everything. Also, do you have good sub drs. there where you are? Don't let them put you on a super high dose either...that is stupid for them to do. I think most of them are getting a clue now that most people don't need over 8mgs starting and you, where you are could start even lower. Do you have the money or insurance to cover the medicine? I would hate for you to just run out and be stuck. If this is really what you want, when the time comes, I would drop your dose by 1mg each time and make sure you stick to a taper..in other words, once you drop, stay there, don't go up and down because that will make it worse in the end.
People have used the time on sub to get their life together. Just remember to plan way ahead when you decide to stop so you can get through the withdrawals then.
I feel so guilty. I'm sorry.
I made a decision today. I'm going on suboxone. I know what you guys are going to say but I can't do this like this. I think if I do the sub program properly and get my head straight then I'll be able to get off opiates one day soon. Nobody has to live my life but me and doing it ct just isn't going to work. I'm sorry and I feel like such a heel but I have to do what will work for me. Over and out.
At least I should be able to induct at a low dose and taper slowly from there. I'm going to continue to do meetings and work on my head. Because if this has taught me anything it's that I'm more ****** up then I realized.
HI how are you doing now?? if it makes you feel any better it probably wont get any worst from here your going into day 3 your 1/2 way threw it just a few days more and this will be behind you DONT go back on the sub it will make everything you have worked for in vein
YOU CAN DO THIS your doing it when it gets tuff take a deep breath and regroup remember this is all about attitude use your symptoms to strengthen your resolve to quit tell yourself nothing is going to control me like this any more and dont give up 5 min b/4 the mirical
hang in there and keep posting for support good luck my prayers go out to you.....Gnarly