Thank you everyone who helped me yesterday. This is the first time I've tried getting off the pain pills and I figured if I made it a week the hard part would be over. Boy was I wrong, yesterday was a ***** and my brain just kept telling me...."Go ahead, run in there and take a pill and make all this go away.".... You guys saved my life yesterday. Today I got up, got dressed for the first time in 10 days, and walked to the barn. Now don't get me wrong, I still don't have enough energy to do some things, but I made it to the barn and instead of just turning the horses out to pasture I took a few minutes to smell the air in their stalls, I took a min, to actually lay my head on Jett. my fav. gelding, and listen to his heart beat. He stood stock still like he knew I really really needed to just be with him. It was amazing. For anyone thinking of listening to the devient little itch in your brain telling you to just give up...please don't...listen to these folks in here and just give it one more sec. ...one more min.....one more hour.....one more sunrise.