50 hrs clean

[Imoverit23]

Hi all. I am now just over 2 days off a 4 or so a day pill habit. I would take whatever I could get. Luckily nothing has been around for a couple weeks and I finally took my last pill Friday night. I feel restless and lazy and have to return to work tomorrow night for a busy busy evening (bartender) I know I've made it through the hard part. Does your energy ever return ? The thought of going to work (ugh I hate it) makes me want to use. I don't wanna depend on these things forever. I just want to feel good
Any advice please
Also my family does not know and I don't plan on telling them

[Imoverit23]

Hi all..i had a terrible night of sleep. . Tossing and turning but still managed to get some rest after 7am.. i work nights so falling asleep has always been something i struggle with.  I just text my hook up and told her i did not want them anymore.  I've realized that I'm no better with them.  I want my normal life back.  I am smiling thinking of all the extra money i will have each week

[Krissy_123]

Hot Epsom salt baths helps the leg pain. Advil,drink lots of water,Gatorade is good also to keep hydrated. Not your first time so you know it's basically just time that will help. You should look into aftercare if you're really looking to quit,or are you just out and waiting until next pill comes? The withdrawls will get worse the more you have to have them,and the occasional pill is going to start controlling your life...if it's not already. Try the hot bath for your legs though. Always helped me. :))

[Imoverit23]

Yall were right. .almost one month exactly and im about 26 hrs clean.. any help on the leg pain..otc or something?
I hope i am for sure done this time

[Dozeman]

well I hate to hear this I am sure you know you will have to start all over I hate to preach but It dose not sound like you are really wanting to stop and I may not know alot about some things but I do know that this is the most important part if you want clear of pills you must put it in your head that you cannot take a pill I used to drink when I younger every weekend I mean like 15 to 20 years old I would not do nothing that didnt include partying I thought that was the only way to have fun but that changed when my kids where born all the pain will be for nothing if you take it I hope I am wrong which ever way you go I will be around for support after your b-day also I aint had a B-day party in 20 years I guess I just aint that cool good luck

[Imoverit23]

Well it is my birthday.  Can't cancel my party.  I am not a drinker so i will take my chances i suppose. The pills may be givin away but honestly probably not.  I have no other access so after these 2 i will be forced with reality.  Until then im having fun for my birthday

[jifmoc]

Yes, it will make you start all over. So will drinking, which will lead you back to pills.

Your pill abuse will get worse, not better. I hope you change your mind.

[Imoverit23]

Made it thru another night.  I feel great .. just a little achy
my main reason i want to use is. . Its my 30th birthday Saturday. I have a whole weekend planned.  Im not much of a drinker. I always took a pill instead of drinking.  Or if i did drink it was my hangover cure. I feel like **** with alcohol.  Well between bar hopping with 20 friends or so plus a concert i know i will get hammered. Most of my group drinks on the regular so its always in my face
to be honest a friend gave me 2 ..5's a t3 and a Valium . Taking one on sat at the concert and one on Sunday will probably not be enough to make me start over will it??.. i don't have access to any more

[jifmoc]

Bored? You need to start aftercare. Did you look up meetings?

[Dozeman]

dont cave you will have to start all over try to do something to take your mind off it

[Imoverit23]

Really wanting to cave.. 6 days.. im bored

[Imoverit23]

Still going strong. But honestly if something was around i would probably do it.
I feel good just tire easily
trying to fight the urge

[Dozeman]

glad to see you doing it I always try to think of my first 3 days to keep me going remembering that is enough for me nobody wants to do that again keep up the good work

[Imoverit23]

I've never taken sub but I have been taking 2 Advil, 1 Imodium and 2 be Benadryl  before bed. Maybe it's just a mental thing to pop some pills.. Sounds ridiculous I know but it seems to help me rest easier. Also NyQuil instead of the Advil may help.
I work second shift while hubs works 1st so it's hard to come home after he is asleep and just shut off and sleep. The pills always helped but time to find new ways
Praying I can make it thru this birthday weekend without going back

[skrilli]

Sounds like you are doing pretty good. I just jumped off of suboxone after being on it for a few years. It will be a month of sobriety on friday!! But I'm still feeling horrible.  Today was one of the worst. I just wish my sleep patterns would be normal and lengthy instead of 3 or 4 hours a night. Keep up the good work. I feel good about myself making it this far, I just wish my body would start feeling the same way

[Imoverit23]

Still going.. Over 4 days now. Feeling much better and more energy too. Still achy and slightly just uncomfortable. Trying to fight the temptation
Work went well last night. Felt good to get some walking in. I slept better
Just this mental I want them thing... Argh

[Imoverit23]

I just woke up for day 3. I feel great.. Woke up early showered and did a few things around the house.. Which haven't been done since Friday. Felt good to wake up and feel decent without having to wait an hour for my morning pill to kick in. Dreading work tonight but at least it will be busy so hopefully it will go quickly. It's my birthday Friday so hoping to stay clean for that. I am ready to make 30 clean and fabulous

[Dozeman]

work will be a good thing it will help pass the time I would love to go to work but the weather effects my job so time crawls for me so try to look at it that way everyday your getting better

[Cricketk92]

Hi and welcome!  Congrats on your 2 days!  That is awesome!  You probably wont feel great for a few more days and the energy can take a while to come back!  I am just over 30 days clean and still struggle with it some days!  But life is so much better clean!  Who do you have for support if you arent going to tell your family?  Does anyone know what you are going through?  Its important the you have some kind of support through this!  Look into NA/AA meetings or maybe some counseling!  They will definitely be a lifeline for you and it is hard to stay clean without!  Keep posting and let us know how you are doing!!!