Well, as some of you may know, I was scared to death of returning to work on Monday the 5th. Well, I get paid once a month on the last day of the month and I just recently switched to direct deposit. I thought it would have gone through today. It did not. I got up this morning and nearly cried when I realized I would have to go in to the office, facing all those people while going through withdrawals.
Well, I didn't smoke a cigarette this morning. For some reason, ciggies have made me anxious since I quit pills. So, to lessen the anxiety, I didn't smoke. I was dying for a cigarette, but the want for less anxiety far outweighed my cravings for a smoke. I got to the office, looking like death warmed over, armed with my story of being sick over the entire Christmas break. It worked because everyone commented on my weight loss (I've lost a LOT of weight). I went in, got the mail, checked my messages (there were none - I'm switching departments and my phone line has been shut off - THANK GOD!) I talked to people, laughed, communicated properly, had very little anxiety and made it for a couple of hours at the office.
I cannot believe it! I am so psyched about returning to work on Monday. You can betcha I won't be smoking before or during work, either.