Well, I got through my ballgame last nite without taking any pills. First time in a couple years. I was anxious and had a hard time sitting still, but was fine. Now I know I can see a concert while not taking, go to a movie, and all the other things I remember doing on the pills. I think the key for me is to make sure I have a few pills left, and tell myself I'm not taking them. It's easier for me than to be panicked because I don't have any left. I feel like I am more in control this way. I have too much going for me to waste my life on these pills. I have made up my mind that I am not going back. We all have different timeframes, we go at different paces. For me the time was right now. I have too much going for me to spend my day thinking about pills. I used to wake up every morning feeling guilty about how many pills I took the day before. Then I would take inventory of how many I had left. Then start planning my day around the pills, ignoring all the people around me who care about me. Today I woke up feeling good about myself and looking forward to all the things I can do today. Thank you all for being there for me when I needed you the most. You will always be in my thoughts.
Today I will watch a football game at 5pm. It will be the first time not on the pills in 2 years. I used to really love watching the games while on the Lortab. I know it sounds silly, but I guess we all have our things. I wonder if I can get through it okay, if it will still be fun. Even though I have some left, I am NOT tempted right now. I am in too deep to turn back now. I already have to live with myself for using, I don't know how I could live with myself for failing to quit. Please think about me today, and let me tell you how it goes tonite.
I am on day six of withdrawal from Vicodin and I felt like you around day 2 and 3. I think it is the drugs trying to fool you into takeing them again. Do not give in! Day 4 me and my hubby were intimidate and it was amazing! The drugs had dulled my senses but now they are all awake and thriving. I stood outside on day 5 and stared at some geese and was amazed at the color and beauty of the world. Every day I am finding yet another thing that the drugs robbed from me.
BTW making it to day 2 is a great achievement! Take it one step at a time. I wasnt taking anymore than you and am feeling wonderful.