any advice?

[climbingthewalls]

after multiple surgeries I started abusing my norco to the point of insanity(up to 24 10/325 per day). broke down and told my Doc to cut me off and he sent me to a pm center to help with the taper. they prescribed a tapering dose of 24hr morphine which was fine for a while but then i started buying norcs off the street to supplement this. Have had enough of this S#!!. sick of being broke and living for this drug (and nothing else!) managed to get down to 20mg of the morph and 3-6 norcs a day up until a week ago then the doc told me i was ready for the end!! (obviously I hadn't been entirely honest with him) and told me he was going to give me 60 5mg norcs and a daily taper schedule!! they were supposed to last me a month but after the first couple days i was down to 25 pills left. i did a rapid taper with these and had my last 3 5mg pills @ 12pm on fri. sorry for rambling but i havent spoken to anyone in two days (took a week off work for this!!) i'm doing this on my own at home, too embarrassed to talk to friends on this. 45 hours and 37 min since my last 'hit'......ANY advice would be greatly appreciated....thanks so much!

[climbingthewalls]

Been thinking about calling my "guy" all day. felt like hell earlier but didnt make the call. any ideas on what day three will bring? dont feel too horrible at the mo. just sweaty and hollow......so VERY hollow...

[Jinx_777]

if it were that easy then nobody would ever stop using.  :)  you will get better.  as soon as you can get a zinc, magnesium and calcium (3 in 1) multivitamin from walmart.  about $5. if you could get your hands on some protein shakes or ensure that would be great too.  you can take as hot of a shower as you can stand or bath.  temporary relief,but enough sometimes to get some sleep.  if you do not give your body the protein it needs you will never have energy.  catch 22

[climbingthewalls]

cheers dude. I know (hope) this will get better. and i know im being a baby and after all, i did this to myself!! Just wish there was a magic potion (other than more pills) that would break the misery. only been awake 6 hours but im sure its been 6 days!!!!!

[rush2112]

oh and eating will help you, you need calories for energy even if they run through you...also use a little vaseline on your but to keep it from getting raw...

[rush2112]

the poops should conclude in a day or two, you can take Immodium if you want.
Trust me on this, one, two more days and you will start to notice slight improvements...but you do have to keep moving forward...and not backslide...

I know you don't want to do anything, but if you force yourself to get out of the house a little it will help pass the time...and actually walking the dog, no matter how much you don't want to do it, is the perfect activity...it gets you moving a little, gets you out in the sun for a bit and gives you a small sense of accomplishment. It can be done, you are not dead, you are not happy about being alive, but you are not dead...so go live....

sometimes you have to fake it till you make it...

[climbingthewalls]

thanks. i know i should eat but there seems to be no resistance between my mouth and my butt lol. any idea how long the ****** blah hopeless feeling will last?? i think this is hurting the most! although the not sleeping *****, waking up at 6am and knowing im going to do nothing or WANT to do anything AT ALL. I filled my DVR, got good books but have NO interest in ANYTHING. I feel terrible as i dont even have the energy to take my dog for a walk. even going downstairs to smoke a cigarette seems like too much!
i know im being a ***** but i cant seem to get out of the funk

[rush2112]

you are almost done with the hardest physical part...i'd say you will start to feel slightly better every day from here on out, so you gotta just tough it out till then...i promise you it is worth the time you are putting in...keep up the good work...oh, and regardless of wether or not you want to, ty to eat

[climbingthewalls]

cheers. you are right! i think the only thing thats stopping me calling for pills is the realization that these last to days wouldve been for naught!! feel like crap but talking about it DOES help. Thanks so much!!

[climbingthewalls]

thanks fot the reply. made a point of running out of cash so i couldnt go out and buy some. didnt plan this too well lol. did have a plan to purchase the items on the list but like a fu@#$%ng idiot used the money for pills. have vitamins, muscle relaxers and food (although the food thing isnt interesting me at the mo) feel like crap and the urge to call someone for pills is HUGE but thanks again. just talking to someone who is aware of what this is is helping. thanks so much

[ActingBrandNew]

Just hang in there! Your about to start day 3 as soon as it hits 12pm! That's a huge accomplishment! Day 3 seems to be the hardest for many but once you get though it....hopefully you will have turned the corner and will slowly start to feel better. Just keep your eye on the prize and know that if you use...you will have to start all over and these last 48 hours would have been for nothing! You can do it!

[Jinx_777]

you have to understand that you are in control and not your addict brain,  your addict brain does not have the ability to get the drugs and put in your body, YOU have the control.  you have to fight your own brain.  make up your mind that you are DONE.  just tell yourself 'I am done, it is my own fault that i did not taper properly and i am going to have to deal with this because of that decision'.  just fight.  at the bottom of the page is the Thomas Recipe and it has helped lesson the withdrawal symptoms for many.  pretend you have the flu for a few days.  when you actually have the flu you have no control over it and you have no control over the detox at this stage.  then hit some AA or NA meetings and stay clean so you never have to go through this again