big loser

[ithurts1979]

If anyone has been curious once again the pills beat me. ***** am very depressed got screamed at by my husband threatning a divorce. I am only two days clean. Here I go again in this stupid circle that feels lime it will never end

[freshstart01]

You can do it. It's not worth losing your family over it. Once you are detoxed you will have emotions happy ones, sad ones, but it's worth it. God bless , stay strong, you will do this for yourself. Then your family . My husband gave me that ultimatum too, glad he did. Reality check. It's not worth it. Changed my way of thinking and on 11 days. Without nasty little yellow pills. Gross. Get mad at them!

[dominosarah]

Have you had issues with depression before?  If so maybe talking with your doctor would help.  There are non narcotic meds for this.  Have you given any thought to aftercare?  I have read some of your other posts and i know you are dealing with some relationship issues also.  If you have any pills in the house now is the time to get rid of them.  All they do is call your name.........Keep posting as we are here to support you~~~sara

[gnarly_1]

HI WELCOME TO the forum....sounds like you been on this merry go round a wile....aslo sounds like your hubby is hade it with it ....addiction affects the whole family  not just you
you need a plan I often say people dont plan to fail they fail to plan ....by now I dont have to tell you this is a recurring disorder it requires work to get clean butb more so work to stay clean have you tryed N/A yet?? its a great progam and has worked for many of our members including myself  this is nothing that will just go away on its own im sure if you explane to your hubby you need a meetting or 2 a week he will understand we all do the more the merryer
some sponsors insist on 90 metting in 90 days I never took it that fare but was up ther 2 times a week for many years now I see a substance abuse consolor once a week to deal with my methadone recovery but aftercare is the key to long term sobriety that and theres a wise man here that says the desire to get clean must exceed the desire to get high for this to work ....sounds like you got a lot at satke here time to do the right thing you wont regrest it good luck and Godbless,,,,,,,Gnarly