can't believe its true!

[Kuckma]

Right now in my head all it am thinking:keep it together KEEP IT THE H*** TOGETHER!!!!!!!
Its true I am an addict. I started reading this site last night. After I had ran out of Norco.
All I take is 2 a day. When I knew last night that I can not take more to get rid of the pain at night.I freaked out!!!
Anxiity all night, my whole body is hurting, my muscles are spazing.
And I do not want to kids to talk to me. Keep it together its not there fault wait till there gone off to school with a smile then go cry.
I am a mother of three with a good job, a good family life, but no one knows..........I think
As I am reading on this site some family members knew without someone saying.
I can not think.....I am an addict......wow
I had to call out work, this will look bad on me!
What in the world am I gona do, this is so bad I never thought this could ever happen to me

[kristina32]

Know your not coming down with anything,your going through withdrawals and it will kind of come at you in different ways,it is a bit different for every one.Having a low fever and the runs,know energy are all part of withdrawals and tomorrow you might not have a fever and/or the runs but there might be a new withdrawal symptom.I am amazed that you even went shopping your doing great. I can relate to you 100% I am A mommy of three and reading your story was like reading my own...Stay strong:)

[Kuckma]

Update:
so I went to the store, I was dragging like you would not believe it.
I was going to get some catlittler but I could not lift the container. What the heck?
I still carry my seven year old to bed....
My body is a week.
When I got home just now, I put away the stuff, and I dont know just on a hunch,
took my temp. 100.4 and I am sorry, I have to share, I been having  the runs all day long and can not eat. Did not eat at all today.

Did anyone experience that before? A light fever with the withdraw or am I coming down with something together with the withdraw?

And again the whole time I have that prescription in the back of my mind.
did I tell you all what a huge help u all been today? Thanks

[DayToTry]

And if it helps you any ... Most day I was only taking 3 Vicodin a day and I didn't have near the WD symptoms people talk about on here so I am hoping the same for you.  Also I took Ibuprofen (which Tylenol may do the same) for the aches.  Just keep remembering that it will only be a few days.  Just a temporary thing.  After that its all mental.  Wishing you all the best.

[gnarly_1]

HI....im a coffee lover to but when your detoxing it can make the anxiety worst so ether dont drink it or limit it to 1 cup....for me the anxiety was one of the worst symptoms
everybody has something that they find to be there worst symptom you mentioned it
so I thought I would let you know about caffeine being a no no....the shoping will be good it will take your mind off all this do your best to stay bizzy good luck and God bless...Gnarly    

[Kuckma]

I'm sorry, u all are going to be part of my life for a while, especially today....
so please grab a comfy chair.

The reason I am so ashamed and embarrassed is because I am one of those old fashion German gals- Be there for your family, do your job well, don't pay attention to much to yourself but to your family.
Well.......did I F*** that up or what??
The pills make me not pay too much attention to my body,pain, overworked, tired, frustrated, sad....does not matter.  But it also makes me not pay attention to my family like I should. Im doing it, yes, but without any feelings or fake feelings that are gone again. when I "come down". How selfish is that?  But no matter what it is, with the drugs I can handle it, so now, how will I handle it? HOW?
So I guess I need to talk to my Dr. after all and blow my cover.

OK, this is what we will do, I will make coffee.......In between I thank for finding u guys. Maybe I really can be "normal" again.

I am going to get dressed and go to the store to get grocery's. Now the whole time I have that prescription in the back of my head....I hope I can make that go away....I might take some Tylenol for the bodypain to make it easier to walk.

[dominosarah]

You didnt set out to get addicted.  You are feeling very overwhelmed right now.  We are here for you, just know that.          sara