My story

[Ladykonnie]

Not a question, want to share my story. I am addicted to opiates and I am a recovering meth user. Have not used meth in over 12 years. Now I have this monkey in my back. I have been reading a lot of stories here and we are all on the same boat. It starts out with legitimate pain, go to doctors office and get a "band aid" on. Then one pill turns into two. Then after surgery you swear you won't use and you still take them, in higher doses. I can't do anything without these pills. Energy level is low. I need to quit because I have SO much to live for! I have a beautiful family a wonderful life. And here I am poisoning my body. It has become a big problem for me. I know exactly what I need to do yet I keep putting it off. Is there anyone else out there like me?

[Ladykonnie]

I can't take time off right now. But I just bought all the stuff needed in the Thomas recipe. So I know I am going to do it. I want to do it, need to get off this roller coaster. I am shooting for Tuesday. Please pray for me. The thing that scares me the most is not being able to get up and work. If I do not do my job, no one does it for me, but if I die, it will be a permanent absence. And I am not ready to die. We all know if we continue on a addictive life, our bodies will eventually shut off. Our organs can only take so much. I have been taking pills for over 5 years. My blood work says  I'm fine, but I know better. Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. Please do not give up on me. I need your support. I already beat meth, I am sure I can beat this right? Also to all of you that are following doctors orders and taking your opiates as instructed. Please do not end up like me. Addicted. Those pills are SO addictive.

[Ladykonnie]

I can't take time off right now. But I just bought all the stuff needed in the Thomas recipe. So I know I am going to do it. I want to do it, need to get off this roller coaster. I am shooting for Tuesday. Please pray for me. The thing that scares me the most is not being able to get up and work. If I do not do my job, no one does it for me, but if I die, it will be a permanent absence. And I am not ready to die. We all know if we continue on a addictive life, our bodies will eventually shut off. Our organs can only take so much. I have been taking pills for over 5 years. My blood work says  I'm fine, but I know better. Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. Please do not give up on me. I need your support. I already beat meth, I am sure I can beat this right? Also to all of you that are following doctors orders and taking your opiates as instructed. Please do not end up like me. Addicted. Those pills are SO addictive.

[ezmoney]

Congrats with 200 days. That's great . I found site yesterday . Looking forward to counting my days clean. For now gonna try and ween off. How did u do it. Preshadit

[BanMethadone]

HI and welcome:

Yep lots and lots out there like you! It's scary how many. I think you're definitely on the right track coming on here, realizing that the drugs are poison, and that you do have so much to live for. Everyone of us, at one point, has thought "I can't do anything without this drug" but that is the first thought that must be changed. You have to believe that you can do everything without the drug, and then set your mind to how you're going to achieve that goal.

I am in the same boat you are basically, but now the need and desire for my drug has decreased and the life I have has become more important than my drug. I have been on methadone 14 years, and I was on 90mg. Now I am down to 9 today on a taper. I just keep thinking how excited I am that I after this crap is through I can begin to heal and recoup my body's natural systems.

I experience w/d every week for about 5 days, and then it seems to subside on the 5th day. I then get some rest the 6th and 7th days usually and begin again. RLS, Insomnia, and all of the running to the bathroom are the worst. Chills too... those suck. Oh and I've been soaking my bed with night sweats for months now. It cycles for me, bc I am on a taper. I don't know what's worse... a longer slower suffering or a more intense yet faster one sheesh!

w/d *****. NO doubt about that, but it's temporary. Once this crap is out of our lives the real healing can begin. Until that time, you will be in my thoughts and I will be pulling for both of us!

[ezmoney]

I found this site yesterday which means I want and need help with my addiction to opiates. I find comfort in knowing there is people out there like me & u. Good luck , looks like cold turkey is NOT the way to go but weening off them is. Been on these for over 4 years and getting sick & tired of being sick & tired.   This site has really opened my eyes to the fact we are not alone  

[ROSYouralright]

Hi, WELCOME! Thanks for sharing your story.. You wouldn't believe how many their are "like you". I was like that 200 days ago until one day I found MH and decided to get my **** together... Their is freedom in recovery. Don't put it off. You deserve a life of true joy. What is holding you back?