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[clicked]

Hi this is very hard to do. I am sick as a dog and can't stand it anymore. I have been taking lortab for a year. I am day 3 of this torment.  Been trying the home remedies but nothing makes me feel ok. Was so dehydrated I went to the ER last night and got some fluids put in me. Oh yeah and some demerol and toradol for the migraine I had developed. I felt good for about 2 hours then the drugs wore off. I tried to eat but it just stuck in my mouth very hard to swallow food. Gator aid goes down better.
I have scripts but too soon to fill them. Guess whos fault that is. Mine of course. I have fibromyalgia. it hurts so bad but honestly not as much as this withdrawal does. this is so sick . I take lortab 10 twice a day except when I am really bad then I take 3 in 24 hour period. I thought I was safe because  I dont take handfulls of pills.
My question is when does it stop.

[selfinduced]

Be sure to treat your body right while your weaning. Lots of protein, a good multi vitamin, and a bit of exercise. It will then better handle the process. xx

[clicked]

I am still jittery and can't sleep. This lets me know I am still in the fight. Still having bathroom issues so I know my body is still waging war. But I now know that this is what has to be. I am just gonna do my best.

[selfinduced]

Hey There, So glad the pill thing finally "clicked"(couldn't resist) in your head. This whole detox/w/d seems to be for most of us a process. You have a new respect for the pills that you didn't before. Another member on here (free) has said, once we have seen the damage these pills cause, we can no longer enjoy the high. SO true. Chances are your original pain will be less once you taper completely off these pills. Cheering for you, be diligent with your taper and you got this.

[Teresa1717]

Dont be sorry to us for disappointing. We all understand how this monster works and most have been right where you are now! You will get there when your ready and you are making the right first steps in reaching out here to us for support. Eventually you will have the strength to say enough is enough and we will all be right here for you when you do!

Dont beat yourself up over getting the rx's. Take one day at a time and figure out your plan and just put it into action! Weve got your back! :)

[Pat1956100]

You've got my prayers and don't ever be afraid to come back and post if you run into trouble.  Lots of us have been where you are.  Just remember it's very easy to slip back into abusing as we build up a tolerance to them quickly.  They are probably working nicely for you now because you have been off them for a few days.  Be very, very careful or you will be back in the same situation.
Hugs
Pat

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I am feeling better and think that this may work. I have a completely different idea about the drugs. I went from thinking I needed more, to deciding to try to do with as little as I can. I have a bigger respect for how much damage this drug can do to people. I am 56 years old and it seems I have just found out I am worth the effort and that I am responsible for my own care. I know that sounds stupid, but a light went off in my head. I cannot and do not expect this to be easy. I have been so mad about having this stupid fibromyalgia that I have been medicating to numb myself. I am not willing to go through the torment again that I went through this last weekend. That means that I am accountable. I have had a couple of very close friends die and I believe I have been not dealing very well with the loss and being afraid of my own mortality. The seemed easier when I was numb. I found out that has a very high price. So far I haven't cheated. I know it will be a hard battle. I called my sister and told her about my addiction. She was very supportive. I have to be careful and try my hardest. I want your prayers.