I FEEL SO WORTHLESS AND ASHAMED...

[stnick_77]

OMG I cant beleive what i did today...I am so ashamed to post it. I relapsed, I took 90 mg of morphine and two 10/325 Norcos. I cant beleive i did this...and i feel so awful, i feel like i have let all of you guys down, because i know that you have all been trying to help me, and then for me to do that. I just dont know what to do, I would like to appologize to everyone for me being a dumb ***  If anyone is available to talk or anything I could really use it...

-Nick-

[Clamity2]

Hey anyone that spends time on a 12 step and doesnt pick up is grateful. Even if the addict picks up.

You dont need to be sorry .  I hope you are clean today.

[dominosarah]

You didnt let anyone down but yourself.  Dig deep within yourself and get back on track.  You can do this.  Post when you are craving and talk to us.  That is what we are here for.  Just dont beat yourself up over this.  Get back on here and talk and read.  Stay strong        sara

[gizzy32]

The only person you need to apologize to is yourself. You didn`t let us down, but I`m sure you feel guilty as hell right now, relapses suck. One thing i have learned is the quicker you get back up, the better it is and you should be proud that you posted.

One of the most important things is to be honest and that`s what you have done so don`t let the guilt eat you up and get back on here and post. Learn from your mistake or what triggered you to use. Support and aftercare are essential in STAYING clean. Let us know how you are today and don`t let this spiral you down. Good luck

[worried878]

let it go...remember why u did it..see if u know what triggered it..work on that issue and seek support..meetings right now are so important...tomorrow is another day...go from there and get back on track

[corey411]

Just pick up where you left off and never stop trying. This is not easy for any of us. Most have been in your shoes at some point. Don't beat yourself up and just jump right back on track. You may feel a little shakey for a day or 2 but nothing like at first. You will still have the recovery time you had before today. Just keep posting and let everyone talk you through the cravings next time. God Bless, Corey

[kberrier]

**** happens right!  Don't get down on yourself, just start over again.  Hang in there!  It will get better.  You are obviously calling out for some serious help since you posted to tell us all that you relapsed.  You don't want this cycle to start over again.  I posted to you earlier today telling you that I want to use you as someone to look up to that stayed 63 days clean.  I still will look up to you because I know you are going to stop and become clean again.  I am only on day four of not using and still dealing with a few detox symtoms so now we can be in the same boat together because I know you are going to not use anymore.  We all have faith in you.  So, let's do this together.  I'm here for ya!  I may not be an expert at all of this, but I have an ear to listen.  Take care!
Kristi

[cathy5841]

like r2r said it is good that you posted.  you didnt let us down you let you dawn.  we have all been right where you are today.  stop using NOW.  you can get past this.  next time post before you use and ask for support.  look into some NA meetings they will help you.  you have to get to the root cause for your using and deal with it if you are ever going to stay clean.  you can beat this,,,have faith in yourself...

[road2recovery]

I am sooo glad you posted...YOU are not a *******, you are an addict...I really feel that you have no support other then this forum...I truly beleive that with out help it is hard to succeed...Don't get me wrong, this forum saved my life...But it also made me find my addiction counsouler...PLEASE stop today, you dont' want to go back to that life...YOU know you don't..If you did , you would not be here posting..you would be looking for more dope...Hang in there

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

First -Lighten up on yourself......this is us, man. You arent going to do anything that will shock anyone here. The only way you let us down is to surrender. Just pick yourself up - dust yourself off - and get back on - we really do understand. I had a parachute malfunction one fine day - it got pretty dicey for a minute or so. When I finally hit the ground alive I will never forget the Jumpmaster -----  he took one look at me and said " You will never jump again unless you go right back up."  And I stepped out of one chute and into another and was in the air again within ten minutews. Also made a perfect jump that next time. Its nice to see a "10" in your logbook when the one before it was a "Z" - totally out of control!! ----   I am around if you wish to chat or anything ------  eagle