Is it worth it- day 7

[cleangimnow]

I'm super bummed out today on day 7. Going back to work tomorrow and I feel so tired man. Did a lot this weekend which I thought best. My stomach is still unsettled. Will I make it to the other side? Is it worth it?

[cleangimnow]

Hey thanks im glad that I can be any help at all. The people here are WONDERFUL. I have a 3 year old which is easier in some ways but she's super active. It's weird because I'm not sure if my resolve has caused me to not crave or what. Too many times at this rodeo...I feel better every day. I couldn't work most of last week. Monday-day 1 was terrible. I don't want to go back there. I guess that maybe we all have our rock bottom. My wife was on me to stop and I had been weaning for way too long. Last Sunday I took a couple of big bottles and dumped them in the disposal. That was actually a really good feeling. The times before I would never just get rid of them. She has been more supportive knowing that I needed a week to b sick. That made a big difference. I didn't rush going back to work. Getting my life back is far more important than 4 days off work.

Sorry to go on about it. It helps...Do you find it odd that people don't think that "responsible" people have serious problems?  I'm going to keep "manning up" and roll with it. It can only get better from here!  We are all miserable at the end of our addictions. We just don't see it until we step back you know?  I think that you just have to have a balance between rest, healing, and keeping on keeping on.

Thanks for listening:)

[hiskidd]

Hey. Yours was the first thread I read today, after returning to set up my classroom to teach for the first day today. It was non paid workday, and only being there 3 hours got my back and neck pain up big time. The pill temptation even came back at a couple of points, but what was worse was the stress and fatalism...

Anyway, I don't believe in coincidences/accidents, etc. I am the praying type and your thread is helping me even now. I have true pain, but went through WDs while off work, and have been managing my pain in other ways. But, I know the "take a pill, glide through the day, laugh and talk with people without feeling stressed," kind of thoughts are all lies. Life is hard and life is hard work.

I'm right there with you with the sleep as well and we have a two-week old in our house. I guess we just can't stress too much about the future and deal with the day at hand. I just keep thinking how time works. Your thread started with worry over your next day at work. 15 minutes ago, you were not only in it, but you were succeeding. Great example!

God bless,

David

[cleangimnow]

Thank you for those words. Its getting easier by the day. I'm just tired from life responsibilities and not enough sleep.

[hungouttodry]

`o yes it is totally worth it. Im on day 25 stillhave a little problem with stomach cramps that didnt start till after my appetite came back. Take what works for u I took pepsid for two days seemed to help a bit. Just hang in there and your days will start to go by faster with each day u improve. Dont expect big changes it didnt work that way for me it came inches at a time and now Im on day25. I know positivle u can do this.Good luck          and god bless. also pray it does help when u think u cant keep going u can.

[sparkie825]

YES!!! It's worth it.  I'm on day 6 off of Hydrocodone.  Still have low grade headache and mild stomach upset.   Chasing it with Advil and Pepto Bismol (I cut out the Immodium two days ago--no more opiates for me.)  Worst of the physical part is almost over.  

You can do it.  

[salsinator]

I too am a high level professional where I work.   Been there 20 years.   People have no clue what you are going through, but if you have someone you trust and can talk to, it always helps. addiction does not care who you are.  A rich doctor or poor man on the street, it does not matter.

[cleangimnow]

I hear you. They look at me like you don't know what I've been though. Just bc I look like a professional with all together I am an addict like them. Today is day 8 an I'm at work. I feel soo much better. Hope everyone is doing well. I have a lunch meeting so no NA for me today I'm staying busy.

[salsinator]

You know, everyone has options.  For some, NA and AA work very well, for others it doesn't.  The important part is to have a program and work it.  I personally have been to NA and AA and just did not feel it was the right thing for me.  I work with a therapist and use this website, along with family and friend support.  

I relapsed after over 2 years clean just two weeks ago.  The reason, I let stress, work, and life get to me, stopped working my program, lied to myself and thought just a few would not hurt.  Not true.  The saying one is too many and 1000 never enough is so true for us addicts.  Get into q program that works the best for you and stick with it.  All the best.

[Inspire2011]

How is the NA by the way? I'm afraid to go...I heard some crazy stories about people that had been back over 100 x's but hey I'm no one to judge just don't know if I belong. Wow day 7??! That seems like an eternity to me. I'm on day 1 but I did a serious taper from 6 to a 1/4 so my WD have come and gone and even though I messed up and took 1/4 yesterday after stopping completely the day before I can honestly say it didn't do much in the way of setting me back. Just a few leg jitters...which I hear last awhile anyway. Are you still having them? Stay tough. I heard L-tyrosine (2000 mgs) with B6 should up the energy big time. I got some from my local health food store. I wish you the best! You can get thru this. Tomorrow will be easier! Take care keep pushing forward

[cleangimnow]

Thanks man. I appreciate if. I'm hitting NA on my lunch break. I just have to get past some of the ignorant fools in there and talk to the real inspirations.

[gnarly_1]

HI i just asked myself that same question but after yrs clean my answer was yes it is worth it......you dident become an addict overnight you wont get better overnight ether this takes some time the physical part may be threw but the energy crach and mental mindscrew last a wile as addicts we need to change the very way we think and reason for our best thinking got us here......now is a good time to check into aftercare they can teach you the skills on how to stay clean witch you will find much harder then getting clean N/A offers a free program as dose A/A there are other groups out there but get plugged in this stinking thinking can bring you down in a hurry I wish you all the beat in your recovery congrats on 7 days good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[cleangimnow]

Thank you for those kind words!  My office is cold and I remember I was there on day 1.  It was freezing!  I'm wearing long sleeves tomorrow.

[salsinator]

Absolutely and don't think it's not for a moment!!!  I have skated on both sides of the pond and fallen through the ice a couple of time, but I keep getting out and each time I have, I look back and wonder why the heck I ever did it.  You are almost there.  Being tired is normal, but trust me, your energy levels will come back each day.  Take it easy on yourself and if you can, leave maybe just a little early or take a power nap at lunch.  Oh, one more thing you might find.  I was super cold for a couple weeks and actually was wearing a jacket in my office in July.  It was funny, but my office is cold anyway.  You do what you need to do.  Hang in there, I am routing for you!  Steve

[cleangimnow]

Thanks. Not sure why I feel so bummed. Guess my body is readjusting. Thanks for the encouragement. I know the other side has to be worth it.

[FassFeat]

It is worth it. You are through the worst of physical part and will feel some better each day. Hang in there and keep thoughts positive. You are doing great. Congrats on day 7. Andrew