How are you feeling today Mark?
Mark,
I hope all you are needing is an adjustment in meds. I am with the others here who respectfully suggest you bring in your Dr.
You know this is just a part of this disease. You seem to be solid in your faith, consult with your higher power on this.
Many people on here will have you in their thoughts and prayers, Hopefully knowing this will help!
I wish you well my friend.....My prayer for you has already been asked.
I'm hoping today is a better day today. It is so touching to see how much you're loved.
Hey man ... this is Billy (27 yrs on Methadone) ... Suni emailed me and said you were having a rough time. You see because of you I didn't know. Because of you I have my life back and I don't need to come to this site anymore. When I cried out for help on my darkest day you answered and that gave me the strength to get to the next day ... and then the next ... you told me about vitamin B and the milkshake stuff ... that also helped. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm here now ... clean because of your help. Now multiply me with the hundreds that you've help before and after me. DO YOU KNOW WHAT AN IMPACT YOU'RE HAVING ON THIS IS PLANET?
You have your beliefs and they are your strength ... we must live our beliefs or we are hypocrites. You mention that a friend backslid after a year. Well that's a shame ... but he is not you and you can not save everyone ... even Jesus on his best day couldn't save everyone ... and do you think you're better at saving people than He is...?
Listen ... in my philosophy all choices are valid ... if you choose to fall off the wagon ... then so be it ... you'll get back on ... the number of days don't matter ... the only thing that matter is if you are clean NOW ... but I don't think you're going anywhere ... we all get down ... even me ... but because of you ... no matter how down I get ... I KNOW I will never put Methadone or any chemical in my body again.
So the next time you're feeling' blue think of me and all the other people you've helped over the years ... your life is so much more than being a salesman ... no I take that back .. you are the best damn salesman I ever met for being clean ... you've save a lot of weary souls ... and I thank you for saving mine ... GOD BLESS YOU ...!!!
You are such an inspiration to everyone on here, but we know you ARE human & will have bad days...especially when stressing! We battle this disease for so long, I can see that the longer we stay clean, we forget how dreadful it really was! Just remember how hard you worked to get the sober Mark back. It was the fight of your life & you won, you deserve to keep that trophy! Thank you for being you!! Praying for you Mark! Julie
Mark- I have ONE WORD for YOU: SHRIMP!!!!!
You love shrimp more and you know it! Here's the thing: I'd be a liar if I said i never felt this way,too. It's part of the human condition to feel stress and want to escape from it at the same time! It's just never easy for anyone! But,there are also wonderful days in between the bad ones.
For you, it's harder because you already have a situation that messes with your head! I know that disease runs in cycles and the meds that help for a period of time suddenly don't work!
Call the doctor in on this; it's happened before and I believe a lot of this is biology with you along with sleep deprivation. That's when you begin to get the "whispers"...
There's a lot of motivation to stay clean and sober for us...if we were alone on the island here it would just be easy to say,"screw it"! But,there are people who love us and count on us and sometimes when we can't seem to "do it" for ourselves, we need to do it for THEM!
This will pass. I'm glad you shared because you're not the only one who feels like this! So,
come on and call the doctor!! My job is stressful,too,and I think it's unhealthy at times,that's why I don't do it a lot!! Look at some options and how the hell are you this morning???? Don't make me worry about you! I hate to worry on Fridays!!