im sooo down tonite....

[jt808]

i feel like sht tonite its like i feel like such a loser which ive never really felt like at least not in this way or because of what im bout to say, im sure its not big deal to many of u but is to me. ok well lil bit ago i found out that all my friends were having our annual fantasy draft which we do every year before the start of football season, i was the one who got it started like 5/6 yrs ago and i find out from a buddy who isnt in the draft that there all overe at the guys house who has it every year doing it and noone called me to tell me or anythng lke that in fact ive been asking a few of em whn it was and they all say i dnt kno blah blah blah stuff so i tried calling them and texting them and no one was answering  my cals or texts im sure there all over there talking saying like oh its him and im not answering and stuff like that and for me to sit here thinking that thee doing that really makes me feel like complete sht and i can honestly say for the first time in id say my whole life i feel like a loser i have always ben pretty popular but after tonite i feel like a loser i kno its not a big deal to u all but im really down and it made me realize that i dont have any true friends and tht hurtsalot these are the same group of friend tht i told a lil over a year ago tht i have a problem and from that day i told em last year not ONE of em have ever called texted or emailed me asking how i was or anythn like that so i guess i shouldnt be surprised who knows mayb im just feeling srry for myself. but the only thng ive been able to thnk about since this happaned was to go get sum meds and i already been making calls so its just matter of time so there goes like around a month of clean time but i just cant stop thnking about how pisssed i am so sry to waste ur all time wth this but just had to do somethn cuz i was going crazy

[troubleinohio]

plzz listen to the other posters above, Jt!!  and listen buddy, Ive been trying to get a football pool going here (read the social side if you havent already). I would love to see you get in on the NFL pool here.  I also wish someone coiuld put together a fantasy football league here too. Its just too complicated for me to orchestrate though. Im sure someone here could do it though, if so inclined. How about you? Could you do that? Theres a LOT Of NFL fans here in our forum and it would be alot of fun!

[worried878]

u r feeling a bit isoalted...i did as well at this point during the aftermath of quitting..what it is tho is u have been not getting out like u used to..but ur nrg will return..and u will socilaize again..now if the fantasy football friends r users then u may need to skip this season..if not ..join in...depression and kinda stayin in more than usual was part of this for me...but i got back out   and u will too..hang tight

[freebird227]

I believe what eagle said rings true       where you are at with your recovery process? There will be many hic-ups in your life as you continue to stay clean. If you are going to throw away your clean time at least pick a more worthy cause. I feel like you are suffering from the age old "I'll show you F****me.I know thats a lously way to speak but so many times I have seen people go back out over a resentment. They used dope over what someone had done or said and as they were relasping the other person stayed clean.Don't allow these do do heads to live rent free in your mind use the tools of recovery and get yourself free from all this.


You have worked hard to put together your clean time and only You decide what you're going to do with it...................I hope you make the right choice and choose recovery
Good Luck...Debra   I am an addict

[avisg]

Going and getting some drugs isn't going to hurt anybody but you .It wont make them feel bad you will be the one that feels bad .I know dealing with feelings is REALLY hard when you have gone so long being numb .My first reaction was the first time it happened to me was to use but I didnt I realized I was going to have to learn to live again and deal with sadness and depression almost like a kid learning to ride a bike I got threw it . So will you don't give up your wroth its not work it.

[VicUser]

Finding real and true friends is not an easy thing to do. As time goes people you thought were friends will show their true colors given the chance. Those that are will always be there for you, those that are not will just use you and kick you to the curb when you have nothing left to offer them. No matter how old you are it hurts when you do get kicked though. Sometimes though people realize what a friend you really are and do come back. If these guys were ones you partied with you prob make them a bit uncomfortable now and that is ok. You will find new friends and I am sure at least one will prove to be someone you can count on.

You are not a loser.

[corey411]

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so down. I would feel really bad if my "friends" did that to me. Eagle is right. Don't sit by and imagine negative things and go out and find new friends. That would be a better solution than using. Are you going to NA? You can get real friends there that will help you stay clean. DO NOT USE. You will only live to regret it. It can only take you downhill. Hold on and fid a meeting near you first thing tomorrow. Sometimes when we make it through these tough times we come out stronger and better from them. Don't use. Find a new and better solution and don't let negative people control you to the point of using. I'm glad that you posted. I don't think you really want to use. DON'T.....Corey