im sooo down tonite....

[jt808]

i feel like sht tonite its like i feel like such a loser which ive never really felt like at least not in this way or because of what im bout to say, im sure its not big deal to many of u but is to me. ok well lil bit ago i found out that all my friends were having our annual fantasy draft which we do every year before the start of football season, i was the one who got it started like 5/6 yrs ago and i find out from a buddy who isnt in the draft that there all overe at the guys house who has it every year doing it and noone called me to tell me or anythng lke that in fact ive been asking a few of em whn it was and they all say i dnt kno blah blah blah stuff so i tried calling them and texting them and no one was answering  my cals or texts im sure there all over there talking saying like oh its him and im not answering and stuff like that and for me to sit here thinking that thee doing that really makes me feel like complete sht and i can honestly say for the first time in id say my whole life i feel like a loser i have always ben pretty popular but after tonite i feel like a loser i kno its not a big deal to u all but im really down and it made me realize that i dont have any true friends and tht hurtsalot these are the same group of friend tht i told a lil over a year ago tht i have a problem and from that day i told em last year not ONE of em have ever called texted or emailed me asking how i was or anythn like that so i guess i shouldnt be surprised who knows mayb im just feeling srry for myself. but the only thng ive been able to thnk about since this happaned was to go get sum meds and i already been making calls so its just matter of time so there goes like around a month of clean time but i just cant stop thnking about how pisssed i am so sry to waste ur all time wth this but just had to do somethn cuz i was going crazy

[Totsie59]

Dont sound like they were real friends after all...listen to Eagle...dont throw a clean month away.....it just aint worth it...Hang in...post often....

[jt808]

yea i agree its not necessarly the football its just the whole thng like i dont kno cant really explain it i mean like i said ive never been like this ive always been like the life of the party and alot of friends and i dont kno im just down on myself who knows.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Writing a post to vent your feelings is a very valid method of dealing with everything. Tossing a month of clean time because of some fake football and phony friends does not seem valid.  There are many psychological implications of your actions......but they all approach self destructive behavior. Very negative to sit around and imagine what they might be saying about you - or might not. Why not spend a few minutes and figure out why your first thought as a step to deal with your friends is to get some meds after a month without them and year of dealing with them?  Not sure where you are, but I personally like to blow something up or do some shooting if I feel like you express.........