rehab

[kellygirll]

well i will be heading to rehab tuesday in memphis its a place called La Paloma its a really good place i am excited and scared i will miss my husband and my doggies they will be so lost without mama and my son i asked him if he would drive me there he said yes he's just so awesome its  17hr drive i want to fly so bad but I'm scared ******** i should just do it already this is my one and only chance and relapse is not an option i asked if i should take my pills on the day i go there and he said to continue to take them as i do till i get there mmmmmmm  ok  lol i just can't wait to get out of here and get well

[clean_in_ks]

So glad to hear you are going to rehab, Kelly.  It will give you tools and new life skills as well as an opportunity to focus solely on you with no outside distractions.
You have gotten some superb advise above....I would just add how important it is for you to be BRUTALLY honest.... and to allow yourself to become vulnerable while you are in this safe environment.  Be sure to be forthcoming about how you have abused subs in the past because it may affect the decisions of those forming your treatment plan.

Merri has a made a very good suggestion about having them set up outpatient for you at home.  They can do this for you before you leave Memphis.  Those first few days after arriving home are critical because that is when the NEW habits have to begin.....and if you have a plan in place, you won't have any time to settle into old ways.
Wishing you a life changing experience and the courage to follow thru~  

[Merri123]

You are doing the right thing. Wish you were closer to home.

Key is to have outpatient rehab set up for when you get home. Do your appoint the next day. Go all day then you gradually decrease as they plan out. Meetings too.

And cut those using selling people in your life. You can do this. Be dteined pig headed and strong. Be proud of yourself. You have come a long way girl!! This the last step and all downhill. One thing - they will most likely want to give you subs. You'll have to figure out how long you want to be on them for.

How long are you staying?

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

I've heard that some insurance companies won't pay for inpatient detox if you are already clean off the medicine so they may be right in telling you to take your meds...you could always take less than usual though :-)

[kellygirll]

gnarly i have already seen a change in our relationship we have become closer b/c of the support he is giving me i wasn't expecting it at all not this caliber i keep telling him this is going to make our marriage so much stronger and bring us closer i haven't been sober our whole marriage we did our run with drugs but i kept running while he quit so yea things have already begun to get better i just can't wait to GET THERE

[meegWpaw]

I am here to support you, hani ... You know the part you gotta do!  ....  dontcha.  <3

[gnarly_1]

Hi Kelly I just want to encourage you with your decision to go to rehab I agree with Ibkleen you will have to do a complete surrender and just go with a open mind you will not only get clean but you will learn some of the tools to stay that way I wish you good luck on your trip there it will be a great time for you and your hubby to get close to one another again...................................Gnarly..............................................

[kellygirll]

no i dont take xanax i was going to get one 0.5mg to fly with cuz I'm so so SOOOOOOOOOOO afraid to fly i do not like xanax at all used to take it over 20 years ago haven't taken any except when my best friend died last year in probably 20 years just the opiates

[dominosarah]

You take Xanax too?

[IBKleen]

Be careful with the Xanex. Good luck.

[kellygirll]

i intend to work my *** off when i get home failure is not an option for me I'm paying 6300$ to go here I'm not going to let that money go to waste i got my plane ticket today i am sooooooo friggin scared to fly its ridiculous I'm going to get a rental and drive home cuz I'm not going to take any xanax for the flight home and i will need it noway noway noway even tho its not something i ever take its putting something dirty into my clean body i dont want to do that

[kellygirll]

the person who did my admit told me NOT to stop to keep using as i normally do b/c something with my insurance another rehab told me the same thing so I'm going to do what they say I'm not going to jeopardize anything its too important to me and i will be going to be going to meetings meetings meetings when i get home i am paying a lot of money to go here husband will be crushed as i will to if i relapse so its not an option i will work as hard as i have to to stay clean

[dominosarah]

Good luck kelly.  You can do this!

Listen to IBK............

[torri226]

that post was intended for Kelly girl,sorry ibklleen.  Im 57 what can I say not all that computerr literate. Didn't have all this good stuff in my day.lol

[torri226]

the above post speak the truth that they will give the tools,its when you get home that the work begins. I to went to rehab 6 yrs ago and was clean for a about a year. I am off and on again over and over. Now have been tapering AGAIN. You will be going to a lot of aa meetings there,like sometimes 3 a day. Unlike myself I did not keep up with that when I got home.  That is where I think we make our mistakes,like they repeatedly say on here. SO IMPORTANT.  I read you are going to use up until you go, I highly suggest you start to detox and home, I did 5 days before I left and still had a really hard time cuz believe me they keep you going constantly, very structured.  Don't want to scare you,just speaking the truth.I wish you well Kelly,just focus on yourself and good luck to you. This is a terrible disease as you will really learn there. I know I struggle but very determined to end this.   God bless you girl  

[IBKleen]

Good luck Kelly. Again I stress that this will take your FULL surrender and a bunch of hard work. They will not get well for you..they simply provide the path. You can choose to walk on it or take the detour. You will not come back "fixed" or "well". You will come back with some tools in your box. It is up to you to implement them. I hope and pray that you do.

[gyspy09]

Good luck!  It's ganna b hard but u can do it!