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leaving
Well I guess I'm not serious about quoting just naught ten vicoden and took 5 guess ill be back when I'm serious....good luck to everyone don't be peice of **** like me
Don't give up! Relapse doesn't mean you can't do it. Sure you've had a setback, but you can do it! I know it *****, this sickness the aches and the feelin that you ant breathe but it's only a short time compared to the rest of your life and a small price to pay. Take some time, regroup and get back to it! Get some help if you need it, there are support groups to help. Good luck!
I had to keep relapsing over and over until I hit bottom so hard, I finally had to do it for ME. I even told my wife that I wasn't doing it for her or the kids. It hurt her until she realized that I was incapable of doing it for anyone else.
On my last relapse, I was knocked unconscious on the street and my face was all bloody on my last relapse. The cops brought me back to consciousness and drove me home. I was beaten by some guys while in full blown methadone withdrawals. I crapped my pants, vomited on my bed, and got blood all over everything. I was almost dead.
You see, it can get worse, but you do have to do it for you, not the fiancé. Its too hard to quit drugs for someone else, our mind plays tricks on us, that's why we addicts need each other. We understand just how bad it can be and how hard it is. I hope you have access to some aftercare. That is what helped it stick for me. I'm sooo glad you didn't leave as your post said. It will only get worse, trust me, it can get real bad.
I just wanted to tell some of my story for perspective. You didn't fail, it's just part of your story. Someday you will help someone who has relapsed and say, "I KNOW, it feel horrible doesn't it, but you can do it." You can choose how the story goes.
On my last relapse, I was knocked unconscious on the street and my face was all bloody on my last relapse. The cops brought me back to consciousness and drove me home. I was beaten by some guys while in full blown methadone withdrawals. I crapped my pants, vomited on my bed, and got blood all over everything. I was almost dead.
You see, it can get worse, but you do have to do it for you, not the fiancé. Its too hard to quit drugs for someone else, our mind plays tricks on us, that's why we addicts need each other. We understand just how bad it can be and how hard it is. I hope you have access to some aftercare. That is what helped it stick for me. I'm sooo glad you didn't leave as your post said. It will only get worse, trust me, it can get real bad.
I just wanted to tell some of my story for perspective. You didn't fail, it's just part of your story. Someday you will help someone who has relapsed and say, "I KNOW, it feel horrible doesn't it, but you can do it." You can choose how the story goes.
Maybe you should look for a sponsor for YOU instead of looking for your boyfriend/fiance. Just a thought.
You are foolish to leave the forum. It will only fuel your addiction men tally which will lead you physically. I do hope you change your mind and stay. Not everyone here is clean. Some have the desire and that is all that counts.
You are foolish to leave the forum. It will only fuel your addiction men tally which will lead you physically. I do hope you change your mind and stay. Not everyone here is clean. Some have the desire and that is all that counts.
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Time to focus on you, not your bf. Hopefully you will figure this out and stick around. Just remember, you can run but you cant hide~~
I know it is a hard thing.. i was on these for 5 yrs at taking at least 25-30 a day.. the w d was horriable BUT i was on aq HEAVY dose and for a LONG time.. i got clean for 3 yrs... best time of my life (had 2 babies in that time after struggling to even get pregnant for over 5 yrs) i had a few surgeries over the last 3 months that required me to be back on them during my clean time i had NO desire to have them never even craved.. but after taking them for a fewmonths of coarse i got addicted AGAIN.. i decided the other day i was done on day 2 i relapsed w 10 pills.. back on day 1 again.. i really feel i NEEDED that relapse to show me that i do NOT want these in my life no more.. i am tired of the ups and downs, chasing and counting pills, i want to be my happy self again for me and be the mommy my kids deserve and the wife my husband deserves.. dont get me wrong i am doing this for ME..after i took those pills i realized they did nothing but make me feel worse.. they made the sick feeling from w d go away but gave me a different and worse sick feeling.. idk how i have to feel for a week a week is NOTHING compared to the freedom of life w out pills it may be hard and i am not feeling too horriable yet but i took the last of them about 7 hrs ago... i am claiming my faith in God to help me and keeping the devil under my feet where he belongs he only has power of suggestion no REAL power.. i hope for u u will stand up, wipe yourself off and get back on board think of the happy life u and ur boyfriend will have w out being chained to drugs.. u being on them only 4 mo is not going to be too bad for the w d get some vitamins to help u out.. wish u the best and i hope u choose to do this
another thing that helped me is i KNOW that i have to face this at SOME point and the deeper i get into the worse its gonna be and the more wasted days...
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