need a little encouragment

[newlifeahead]

I have been reading this for a few weeks. It has really helped but i decided i too would like the support and realized by posting i could get and give the same encouragement to and from others goitn through the same crap. Just a breif backround i have been on vic and perc's for a LONG time i was clean for 2 years then relapsed why idk because that was by far the BEST 2 yrs of my life i didnt go on them as bad this time but it has been about a year now.  I stopped my last vic 10 days ago but through this last weekend took some tramadol i only had 10 (i dont usually take tram but it seemed to help) HOWEVER i am sure it was a mistake so my last tram was on mon morning but over the weekend i had only taken a total of 10. Since monday late afternoon i have felt not so good. Some points were REALLY bad i am sureit was still from vic and the tram jsut covered it tues i did quite a bit of cleaning ( i also have a 10 month old) so i have no choice but to keep moving.Slept really well mon but last night was HELL i didnt sleep but maybe 2 hrs combined just because of RLS (restless legs) they come faithfully every night by 7 pm that is the WORSE symptom and seems to be the one that i have the most.Today didnt feel too motivated but still took care of my sweet boy (which is one of my major motivations for staying clean he deserves me to be clean) and I deserve it too.... anyway jsut wondering if anyone can tell me how long the restless legs and sleep issues went on for. I eat bannannas dont help i also take warm baths (which help me feel better but not w the RLS) i ahve tried the restless legs med from hyland TOTAL WASTE of money. What has gotten me through this is my faith in God and prayer i know if i pray he helps me immensly. But this RLS doesnt want to stop i would be feelign pretty good if it werent for this i even get it during the day if i sit too much. cant wait for life to be back to normal and i can sleep naturally again. I am inspired by all the strength and clean time on here jsut need a little encouragment thanks:)

[newlifeahead]

@ ann i forgot to mention day 11 IS a long time it is rough getting past these days and 11 days clean for a addict is AMAZING:)

[newlifeahead]

hey thanks ann we NEED the support i really appreciae it and btw CONGRATS on day 11!!!!! Right behind u here and doing pretty good. Yes my husband knows about it and he is 100 percent supportive i am so excited to get my life back and back on trac to where i was. My husband does  f/t maintenance in our church for his job and i jsut really want to be more involved but i havent been up to it because of the pills. I used to be really active in our church and really enjoyed it:) God IS my rock and my strength and i jsut dont want to waste any more tiem he has given us. Ok the RLS seems to have let up a bit i tried laying on the bed tho after church a bit ago and it started not really abd but i got up before it could... i will be sooooo glad when that is done half the time i cant relax because i spend the time wondering when and if the RLS will be kicking in my mind is jsut playing games w me on it because the restless legs drives me crazy... anyway thigns will get better and they r already i told my husband that it felt sooooo nice to be in church today and not be clouded or high to truly be worshipping like i used to.  well again thanks ann and many blessings to u and keep up the good work WTG!!!!HEY desperate so glad to hear from u u sound really good almost day 5 for u YAY!!! Keep it going it gets esasier the only thing i am still struggling w is the RLS and lack of energy but it is getting better. Glad to hear u r kids have survived ur "dinners" lol i know how it feels to not even want to cook but it sure feels great to be back in the kitchen i even made brownies:) It is soooo nice to see people seeing them old selves come back and their personalities it makes me feel liek we are all together conuering this pill world that these dr's and pharmacy companies have worked so hard in that got people hooked i cant wait till the day whenthey outlaw these things until then tho so glad when i see another one kicking it ON THERE OWN:) My dr now knows to NOT prescribe these to me i have made it clear to them also wanted to give u a BIG YAY on ripping up a script that takes A LOT of nerve even something i dont know if i could do so WTG on that  ur mind is in the right place now keep regaining ur life for u and ur family God bless hope ur next post is a GREAT one but if its not and u need to vent do it whatever it takes we are here

[desperatetobefree]

hi everyone and specially u newlife,thanks for askin bout me,i think amazingly and much sooner than i expected ive been feeling pretty ok these past few hours and am starting to see the good side of life in little glimpses and can feel the happiness ahead cuz yesterday i was very unimpressed with my rls and pain and just overwhelming feeling of anxiety that wud not let up.so im happy things r getting easier so soon,i know that there r many hard days ahead but i feel like i can conquer anything if i got past day 4,YIPEE,i was  dreading day 3 and 4 so much,and now im coming to the end of 4. i even made dinner for my kids today for the first time in 4 days,they were surviving on my husbands concocsions,lol,not good.  so im glad i didnt give up and i even ripped up a prescription i had for 120 pills and we get meds free here in ireland so i cud of got em wen eva i liked,but ill never do that agaiiin,these c/t days have been madness but sooo worth it,i feel my old personality creeping back in,i know its soon but im not complaining,hope my posts tomorrow will be just as positive,have a good day newlife and tell ur dr from now to never prescribe these evil things again to u,u know how our lil tram minds work.lol...god bless

[Ann2497]

hey - I am on day 11 - I know not very long but I was touched by your post and decided to jump in and support you and desperate.  I also have a strong faith in God and admired that in you.

How is the RLS?  Does anyone know you are going thru this besides those on this board?

[newlifeahead]

hey batmanrules thanks for joining in !!! how many days do u have clean? YES i feel very proud i have done this before and was clean over 2 years but got comfortable and thought it would be ok when i was prescribed them agian yeah NOT SO MUCH... i slept pretty good last night (on the couch though) we have a king size bed that i love but i seem to be more restless in bed. i feel like it is letting up a bit i hope it stays gone forever UGH i will remember these w/d's forever... i felt great waking up hoping to keep that for a while today off to church this AM so i know that will help me we have lots of good froends there too... desperate how r u doing havenot heard from u???? well will check in later thanks everyone who has joined in it has been very few people but i enjoy ALL the support WE all need it.....

[batmanrules45]

I also wanted to point out that I decided to go for it and give up cigarettes along with the Percocets that I had been on for 5 years.  I thought it would be easier to go thru hell all at once.