hi,
Pretty much everyone i know takes stuff, most dont seem to want to stop though. Quitting is a very personal decision though and it sounds like your time has come. Everything u are feeling is very normal w/d symptoms. Especially the no energy and depression. You should really start to feel relief from that by week three. The thing is, by taking pills every couple of days, u are at this point keeping yourself in acute withdrawal and that HAS to be a living hell. So I would really suggest continuing not to take anything, no matter what. Also focusing on all the negatives that these pills are causing u will help keep u motivated as well as telling yourself that all of this is temporary and u will never have to go through this again if u can resist taking anymore pills. Don't worry about the future, just focus on today. The only goal u should have at this point is not to take pills from the moment u wake up to the moment u (hopefully) go to sleep. Everything else will work itself out. And who knows, maybe u will be a shining example for your family members once they decide they have had enough. Getting clean will only allow you to feel more love and connectedness to your family so of couse u don't have to give them up. But why put yourself into anymore temptation then u have too during these first 2 weeks. The not sleeping is really the worst of this because it starts to wear u down after awhile, but taking painkillers isn't the solution and really doesn't help with the sleeping either. i made the mistake of getting hooked on xanax because of not sleeping so now i am dealing with that. I don't suggest taking anything else addicting if u don't have too. Just adds to the depression. Hang on and just take it as it comes, hour to hour and it will begin to get much easier. If it didn't get easier, i really wouldn't have stayed off for the 30 something days i have. Keep posting too, it helps ALOT!
Your at the right place. You were taking a lot, and many different things, but if you can just hunker down, cut off supply and get some days behind you it will get better. You can do this! Exercise, eat right and get some vitamins/protein supplements going. That will give a little assist to healing your brain. It's going to take awhile, maybe a long while, but you can get to the other side. That's what I am shooting for, and I honestly feel just a tinge better overall everyday. The regulars here can give lots of good advice.
Bryan
You've found the right website. You are like me man,,,not sure when I crossed over into addiction or why I loved the warm fuzzy feeling so much where other can take it or leave it..but i had to understand its how opiates effect me and what do I want to do about it....keep posting, lot of good folks on here that made it to the other side,,,good luck
Welcome, I sent you a private message, write me anytime. You see first hand what this addiction does, please don't continue down this road. Best of luck to you!
What ur going through is 100% normal except ur giving in to the devil pills before ur body can get back to normal! U have abused it for so long ( like i did ) that u HAVE to go through more than 2-5 days of feeling bad. For me my turning point was the act of actually wanting to quit & i believe without that u will loose this battle. U have to want it & deal with feeling down for a while. Tell ur self u have the flu for a week or so. After the 2nd week off i began to feel so much better! Are u taking anything to help with the W/D's? If not u need some Imodium, a multi vitamin, B12 or B complex, magnesium, Gatorade, banana's & u must stay hydrated! This is what i took & i feel it helped a ton!! I hope u keep posting on here, it really helps & people here will help get u through! Love & Prayers. Stacy