Hi, I am a 30 year old mom/wife to young children & by way of legal prescription, my dad giving me some of his for pain, (I have arthritis, slipped disc, fibromyalgia & depression) & rec use I have become addicted to lortabs. I had my last prescription of (60) 7.5s filled thursday, by Saturday night I took my last ones. (I took 50 total - 10 of them I gave to my husband to help me taper. which he ended up taking some of those. He was livid with me yesterday when I told him I was OUT. He is scared I'm going to kill myself with them. (He is also addicted to them, not to the point i am though). I get them I tell myself I am only going to take the prescribed amount, maybe a little more on bad days because my tolerance is so high but within a week (less this time) then are GONE. I am all out now and scared of tomorrow morning when my Withdrawals are the worse and the depression and anxiety are at a all time high. I am trying to stave off the depression and anxiety...it scares the kids when I have crying fits from the withdrawals. The physical part of withdrawals are hard, the emotional part is just EVIL. How do you get through the emotional part????????????????/ Anyone just cry and cry??????? I am proud of myself today just for making it this far without crying my guts out and looking for more. It was hell to even get in the shower today after I took the kids to school. Eating lots of Immodium for the belly issues. I feel HORRIBLE person for blowing thru 50 pills in 3 days. I can't even understand why in the &*^( I ate that many....it just feels so good to be able to CLEAN, pay bills, take care of the kids, the husband and me and fight my depression and anxiety with them. Last month, I think it was 4-5 days before I was out, but was able to get more. This time I'm facing some yucky withdrawls - I think it helps to know I'm not alone. I'm not really a bad person? It's just the addiction in me taking these pills? Seeking encouragement & advice....I do have legit pain issues, but I cannot take my medicine correctly because I have become addicted. I just dont' know what to do where to turn. My husband was mad I took that many that fast, but he does enable me & buys them here in there with spare cash. (as well as other family members). I can't just "leave" my family. 3 weeks until my next refill. I love them, I don't want to tell my doctor....then again I don't want to be this monster & kill my liver and kidneys this way. My babies need me. Surely is a love/hate relationship. I'm a mess....just need withdrawal advice. it's hard to eat....how do you make yourself eat too when in the "throes" of withdrawal???