Day two completed. Not fun but I have a feeling it could be worse or may get worse. Taking Parafon Forte for the leg cramps and shaking...taking my normal Ativan amount prescribed which is helping with anxiety. The B-12 shot actually helped today...Not sleeping good though, feeling cranky and really tired I guess. I don't feel like doing anything. I had to force myself to get some work done. Been able to take care of hubby...and he's trying to help me by being more proactive at caring for himself. Can't eat a thing though.....nothing appeals. I know I'm dreaming but I am praying for the end of the week..hoping that I will feel a little bit more normal (whatever that is) by then
Wish I had a magic answer for u. A pill could take n make it go away. I was hooked on percs, lortab, vicodin....essesntially anything I could get my hands on. I ended up on suboxone which was nothing more than trading one addiction for another. I was on all of these for about 12 years. Pain meds for 7 suboxone for the last 5. I have just completed week one of a very miserable experiance, but I did survive. Today is my 8th day of being completely free. It will b the worst experience u have ever been thru....but u csn do it. Others with more experience can give u better advice but I assure u...there is no easy answer. U can do it tho...I promise.
I've increased the dosage (over the last 2 years or so) because of increased pain AND because what I was taking wasn't working anymore. I even talked to my doctor about it and he was all...well deal with it...I'm not a person who does tapering really well. Cold turkey or nothing. The increased pain has been due to me catching my husband falling, helping him in showers, etc...he's a big man (6'4) so it exacerbated my issues. I've been thinking this way for a year or so...that I need to get off the pain meds and try to find more holistic ways of managing my pain....but fear has always stopped me. I'm hoping having lots of people in here to talk to will help with that fear. Thank you so much for answering!!!
Hi and welcome to this amazing forum. It's still early in the day, but you will receive lots of help in the hours to come. Have you increased your dosage because of the increasing pain. Why can't you "stick to the prescribed amount"
You WILL survive this, the withdrawals won't kill you, but the drugs will...hang in there just for today...lots more folks will chime in soon..
What has happened to you is what happens to all of us. OPIATES ARE NOT GOOD SOLUTIONS FOR CHRONIC PAIN. We will always become dependent, will always need to up our dose, and many many many of us will become addicted.
You've got some great detox tools. I came off of 100 mg of oxy and 40 mg of hydro cold turkey. I had all the meds you mentioned minus the pana forte and plus Clonidine. This is an AWESOME BP med commonly used in opiate detox. It cuts the w/d symptoms in half. I've done two c/t's and the second one I used clonidine and even though my dose was higher and my use longer, my detox was far more manageable with it. So I would speak to your doctor.
You are about to go into peak withdrawals in the next 24 hours so I would highly recommend getting in touch with your doc about the clonidine.
I am so sorry to hear about your pain and your husband's cancer. You need and deserve all the help and support you can get. Keep reaching out okay?
Drink plenty of fluid and be kind and gentle with yourself. You will experience a lot of pain while detoxing. It's rebound pain as long term opiate use creates extra pain receptors. It takes about a month to balance out and get a feel for what your pain levels truly are.
I was amazed to discover I was in 90% LESS pain off the opiates. I went back to a full life including hard core exercise within two months. I hadn't been out of bed for 6 years.
Now, I am having a relapse of one of my chronic painful illnesses for which I am waiting for surgery. It keeps getting pushed and now it's Oct. 3rd. I've had no choice but to return to the opiates in order to function and have a small improvement in my quality of life. But I did live clean and pain free for 2.5 years and I will again.
Keep fighting.
You've got this....
Lu