were does it end

[dwb2k]

ok..i havent posted for a while..maybe its because im ashamed of my pill addiction......im still eating any were from 10 to 20    7.5/750mg vicoden's a day...sometimes mixed with muscle relaxers or xanax....i have a really bad pill problem that seems impossible to kick....its almost like a demon inside me...its running my life,,,,ive asked for advice and have got alot of support from pple on here but i cant seem to find what it is i need to get this under control..im still open for advice if any body wants to give me some...My pill intake has been at this level for years...Its going to stop me or im going to stop it...please..help me out..any advice would be good..

[sharzi]

Hi there,

Yes, I second the idea to try AA or NA.  It saved my life.  Nothing else has ever worked, and trust me, I tried it all.

Best of luck and God Bless,

Sharon

[GA Guy]

If you truly want a new way of life, and you're ready to do anything, then you have a few choices. The best is inpatient rehab, second is outpatient rehab...third is some sort or aftercare...NA/AA meetings, therapy, group therapy...go to 90 meetings in 90 days and your life will change.

[pharma9]

How nice to hear from you again.
You know the answer to your question...If you continue on your path you will lose your health,your family,your finances and probably everything
Go to the social side and read a wonderful post by a wise man....Mangee
Are you worth it?Of course you are worth it,but you have to make that decision for yourself and you only can do it with our help of course.
There are different ways that you can get help...from subs to NA to therapists,but the final person is YOU.
Best of luck in everythinhg and sending cyberhugs your way.

[sweatinit]

Glad to see you back. I ahve been wonderign how you've been doing. Keep trying and do not give up kid. Also, dont be ashamed, as we all have been there. This forum is to help you, not judge you. Here's the thing though...you either have to do it or not. I know its sounds hypocritical coming from someone that relapsed, but I am back on track and trying once again. After 40 some days of clean, I took a perocet. Didnt get high and didnt even liek it. So hang in there and maybe do the 90 for 90 as addict suggests. if not, can you go to rehab? maybe even out patient? Or get with a doctor that can help you ocme up with a plan. Keep posting k?

[Addict63]

I hear that zannies are dangerous to come off of on your own, but you probably know that. Opiate WDs won't kill you too bad.

My own thinking just wouldn't ever fix my own thinking, although I tried over and over again. I finally had to surrender everything, the drugs, booze... It all quit working for me. I'm completely weak and powerless over any mind altering substance. I've surrendered my addictions and got with the people at AA and NA. I'm still working on dealing with myself, which is what I was escaping.

Once you come out of treatment Try it. For me it was the only thing that works. Try 90 meetings in 90 days. If you don't like what you have by then they'll refund your misery.