will this kill me

[daybreaker19]

im not 100% sure if im addicted to opiates or not but if i dont abuse really high doses of painkillers i cant sleep at night and it takes me around 2 1/2 days to be able to fall asleep on my own without the pain killers lately ive been taking between 3900-4300 miligrams of ACAP a night in total tonight i must have taken around 12-14 pills so i could fall asleep. im sweating alot more then usualy.

tonight i kind of took 1-3 pills and forgot how much i took so i just guessed and took 11 more pills. ive been doing things like this for 8 months. just abusing what ever will get me high and wasting all my money on weed and opiates. i dont know if this is addiction  or not because i cant resist doing drugs when there availible to me. its something i only do at night so i dont get caught and then sleep through the whole day. i think im really depressed to because all i think about is getting high and self harm. i dont think im suicidal i just hate myself.
i really cant afford help if i really needed it. no insurance.

how dangerous is what ive been doing. how dangerous is 4000 acap-ish amounts for my liver if ive done it most nights for several months?
im reallllly sweaty and itchy right now and kinda dizzy i feel like this sumtimes when i take alot of pills and my stomach area kinda hurts the next day i dont know how much longer my liver will take it ive tried to Cold water extract before to avoid the acap but each time the filters never worked so im basicaly forced to take really high amounts of acap with my pills i dont know how much longer i can go without them. when i run out of pills i dont get shakes or anything so i think im not addicted but i also get SUPER depressed and unable to sleep and miserable without them and when any type of drugs are in front of me my brain says no dont do em but my body does it anyways...

[vicki595]

Hey~   Itching is a sign of liver disease as well as withdrawal.  If you haven't gone to the ER yet,you really need to go and get detoxed.

Post back~

[AZKathy]

Sounds like you need some help ... if you can talk to someone in your family about it, that would be good, but please see a dr. who can surely help you.  

If you're feeling terrible right now, don't wait, go to the ER right away, Please!

Take care,
Kathy

[daybreaker19]

to those who dont understand what ACAP is

lots of opiates also have ACAP along side the opiate inside the pill ACAP is basically tylonal which is in the pill to help headaches and pain a tiny bit better its mostly just in there so i cant abuse the pills and take like 50 at once liver damage is caused at 4000 mg of ACAP
i take about 3900-4300 a night worth of painkillers which is usually me chewing up 12-14 pills at once and then drinking a glass of grape juice to make it kick in faster and even harder.
every night i try and get as high as i possibly can with all ways i can. depend on the type of opiate im taking its usually a 2 or 3 hour high from about 60-100 MG of opiate which is what it takes for me to knock out. as im currently waiting for about 70 mg of opiate to kick in as im typing right now so i can go to sleep.

to those who said go to doctor and stuff like that well i dont have ANY money or insurance which forces me to use these pills or weed or what ever gets me high enough to go to sleep because i dont have to pay for these pills i just raid my parents and  friends cabnits so i can get my free high and finally get some sleep...

[daybreaker19]

when i woke up today i was fine just real bad pain in stomach area for first half of day. i do know that the liver heals itself much faster then other organs so because of that i have no friggin clue how bad my health is because ive been doing this 5-7 days a week for several months. i am afraid though that because i always end up waking up the next day when i feel like i took too much pills that one soon itll happen again and ill think "oh ill be fine i always am" and die.. i know im also fairly stupid with the amounts i take of things i mean i had to be hospitalized for an OD when i started high school from taking 3 times the amount of meth pills i should have swallowed. i feel like a retard i was always chasing the biggest high i could get but now im not getting high for fun and i dont have money to either im just trying to get sleep now. life *****.

[M_DuBb22]

Their speaking of APAP, acetometaphin, tylonal. Your taking way too much and are killing your liver. Please get help

[M_DuBb22]

i have a friend who chewed up hydros/percocets like you, like 10 at a time. He chewed up about 3000mg of tylonal (APAP) a day and one day his skin turned yellow and he ended up in the ER, near dead from liver damage. There was also a kid at my college who drank so much last year his skin and eyes turned yellow and he actually died from jaundice. Get help, APAP can be MORE DANGEREOUS THAN OPIATES THEMSELVES!