withdrawaling from roxicet/percocet

[leelee1112]

This is about my 13th withdrawal and I unfortunately know what to expect. I'm 28, married, with an 11 year old step daughter. At 12 I had harrington rod impant surgery, double full, on either side of my spine for severe scoliosis. I have been prescribed percocet, ritalin in my school days, stratera more recently, plus a bunch of anti anxiety and anti depressants. I don't remember how to live without aid. My whole life I've been told something was wrong with me and handed pills. I didn't even realize that my pain pills were desirable until college, when I started abusing my own script. I've been off the other meds for over a year but have been really struggling to stay away from the pain pills. Please help any way you can, I'm very lost, am now unemployed without insurance.

[leelee1112]

I want to start by saying thank-you so much for the support! I have the full support of my husband but he works 60-70 hours a week so I am still very much alone in this, with family out of state but supportive still. I am taking a potassium supplement and have been for several months now, and rely on hot baths as well, and even though wihdrawal is no stranger to me, I still struggle. I have not been successful in finding any sort of aftercare where I am that doesn't cost money, I live in a small southern town, our nearest NA meetings are over 2 1/2 hours away in the nearest big city. I temporarily got insurance and was set up to start seeing a pain therapist but they will not see me without insurance, and when I went to a clinic they tried to put me on suboxone, but I want to learn to live without being ruled by a pill.  I feel so lost and out of resources.  I would love to start an NA chapter near me but I don't know how I'd do that when I need the services myself.  I don't even know anyone in person who has kicked a reliance on any drug. I seem to be able to get through the hell of the withdrawal, it's afterwards that I'm weak, and relapse every time. Thank-you for sharing tour stories and your strength, I helps so much to know there are people who are figuring it out!

[kyle505]

Welcome:
Lulu is correct - this only gets worse the more you do it. In my case, I can't even claim to have had anything major going on; I had a typical shoulder surgery, got meds, and started abusing. Had been abusing for over ten years prior.
You are at the right place; when I was going through detox (10 days clean now), I almost lived on this site. Great suggestions, advice and support. It sounds like you know what you have to do. keep posting.

[lulu747]

Hi Leelee..
Welcome to the forum...
I hear you...Do you have the supplies to go through detox?  I'm guessing you know all the helpful stuff as you've been through this before.  I totally understand how you feel.  I have several chronic illnesses and pain and was on a whole wack of medication before I woke up and realized WTF? And c/t 37 days ago....It's possible...It really is.  But you need to have an alternative non-narcotic pain management plan in place.  Have you done any aftercare?  Meetings? Counselling?  Set yourself up for success this time...Every time you go back it will hurt more and you deserve to be happy and healthy....Just let us know what you need....Lu