pls help

[rona25]

hi I am Rona and I am  from philippines now living in Norway.Last year September I was admitted in the hospital 3 times,the first time was it is because i woke up 3 am and I couldnt breath,my heart beats so fast and I was in a panick and it was really hard to breath plus my blood pressure was really high.(150 over 100),so they brought be to the hospital and the doctors didn't find anything.the diagnosis was anxiety disorder.They gave me a medicine named xanor.I was released from the hospital after 3 days.In the next day after I got out form the hospital  the same feeling and It was worst,.i couldnt sleep and I was halucinating .I couldnt sleep and it was very hard to breath again .so I was brought to the hospital again.they gave me thesame medicine and a medicine for sinusitis for they said i also have acute sinusitis and acute gastro entiritis.but I couldn't sleep anymore if don't take that xanor.after three day I was released again and still continue taking that medicines.after one day I was brought to the hopsital again with the same problem and that time i was thinking to kill my family,I heard someone whispering me to kill my family.but I really tried my self not to do.The third time ,I had MRI exam,and EEG.and all is normal again.after three days i got released and continue taking the same medicine..after I got released i had attack again but that time I told my self I dont want to go hospital anymore.I stopped taking that xanor because I became addicted and couldn't sleep without taking it.AFTER I stopped then I get the worst headache  in my life.I can't explain how it hurts.NOw I am here in Norway and still suffering of this.Last month I was thinking  again to stab somebody but now I don't think that anymore.Now what I feel is,I feel that I am going to die soon and I think I will go crazy.sometimes when I am sitting I feel I will faint.I feel dizzy,the worst is I can't stop thinking.thinking of anything.for example.a music.when I hear a music.it is always playing in my mind.always.or if I am talking to somebody their words keep playing in my mind,I make my self busy trying not to think but still.Before I was a jolly person and active person.I always go out with friends.I was always happy,but now I lose hope and I don't want to do anymore like what  i did before.I also gaining and gaining weight.I used to make my self beautiful but now I dont even like to brush my hair.I can;t smile anymore.I can't go out.I am scared always.I have headache since september 2008 until now.I just want to know if I will be cure.I just want my life back.I want to be happy again.I wan to do the things I have done before.Am I going to die early because of this?Why I always have nightmares?what am I going to do?sometimes I am thinking to kill my self because I am tired of it.please help me and I hope to get answer from you soon.I am sorry but my english is not good.I do hope you understand.Thank you so much.this site is really a blessing to me.I thank God I found this site.

[nursegirl6572]

Please do not create multiple threads about the same topic (especially duplicate threads).  All it does is create confusion and clutter up the forum.  You have receieved multiple answers on your intial thread.  I would advise you to read through them.  Any further questions/comments should be made on THAT thread, not this one.

[MrGreen]

Did you not see the other replies to much the same post you made yesterday. The answers you need were given to you. Obviously you ignored the advice and instead opted to post the same questions all over again. Just read the other thread. The answers won't change at all. No matter how many threads you create.

[r9c]

Hi,if u are hearing any voices that commands u to do something dangerously then its wise to seek a help from psychiatry other than that ur symptoms like shortness of breathe etc are more likely from anxiety since u had most medical test came back normal.Take it easy on anxiety,it may feel like the end of the world but its a very treatable illness,many people benefits from both theraphy and medications.